Exhausted-fudasca/Rxseboy/Laeland

[00:11.91]Honestly I’m exhausted. [00:13.73]Why is my society so toxic. [00:15.78]My sobriety affecting me like I was standing in a mosh pit. [00:19.49]I just think I’m running outta options. [00:21.32]Everyone the opposite. [00:22.81]Hoping they don’t see me as a college kid. [00:25.11]Cuz most of them don’t even know what knowledge is. [00:27.34]I’m ripping up my scholarships. [00:28.59]I just wanna be an artist now. [00:31.04]And I know they’ll prolly hate me, say I’m watered now. [00:33.75]I don’t got any trophies. [00:35.63]I’m stuck on the shelf. [00:37.06]Everyday is my battle. [00:38.34]I’m only fighting myself. [00:39.62]If I was ever deployed. [00:41.06]I think I’d write to myself. [00:42.52]They say they want me to fail. [00:43.88]I’m not receiving no help. [00:45.30]I’m not wanted, haunted by every comment. [00:47.77]I promise I'm being honest. [00:48.92]They just wanting the honor. [00:50.46]I was never the starter. [00:51.91]Breaking through all my armor. [00:53.34]Maybe I’m just a joke. [00:54.63]I Should’ve been working harder. [00:56.17]Tell me okay [00:58.48]It won’t stop the pain [01:01.28]Life continues this way [01:03.91]And I am drowning so [01:07.63]Call me lonely, call me messed up [01:13.13]Im just tired of this world and I’m tired of myself [01:19.97]Right now I don’t know about it. [01:22.02]Tryna think of anyway, that I can go about it. [01:24.95]Lotta thoughts in my mind, now it’s overcrowded. [01:27.49]Take a sec, and a breath to control the balance. [01:30.42]Every minute adding up, on the stopwatch. [01:33.25]Not enough time, feel like everybody bossed up. [01:35.80]I cannot shoot, time is up on the shot clock. [01:38.59]Wishing I could swish, but I’m still getting crossed up. [01:41.61]Say you balling out. [01:43.12]Friendship falling out. [01:44.43]Always in some trouble, no one hear when I’m calling out. [01:47.23]Hoping music gonna change my life. [01:50.48]People leaving me I know that I can make it right.