PTSD-Dreamville/Omen/Mereba/Deante' Hitchcock/St. Beauty

[00:00.000] 作词 : Marian Mereba/Damon Coleman/Deante' Van Hitchcock/Alexandria Rosemond/Carissa Murray/Cameron Osteen [00:01.000] 作曲 : Marian Mereba/Damon Coleman/Deante' Van Hitchcock/Alexandria Rosemond/Carissa Murray/Cameron Osteen [00:19.849] Used to bend for me like the steel of a hatchback [00:22.373] You was there for Q like a fourth grade class fact [00:24.847] Q was in for me, never needed to ask that [00:27.211] PTSD, now I'm having a flashback [00:29.764] Told me I'm sweet, can't sleep in the trap trap [00:32.004] Enemy, envy, make the strap go brrat brrat [00:34.830] You the missing piece, no peace when I sleep now [00:37.208] Used to practice peace, finna sleep with the piece now [00:40.511] Know I'ma miss you long as I'm alive [00:42.990] You said you either gon' get rich or die tryin' [00:45.472] I wish I didn't have a song to write [00:47.744] I know you'd probably rather me keep it light [00:50.119] My mama told me faith is all that I need [00:51.947] And back in the day I would've agreed, but now it's hard to believe [00:55.004] I still do, not 'cause I want, 'cause I need to [00:57.239] Believe in something greater than me without being able to see it [00:59.998] So **** a watch, I wear my heart on my sleeve [01:01.981] Nobody knows my sorrow, nobody knows about the trouble I seen [01:04.906] A lot of dead n***as livin' through me, shawty, but not in the literal [01:08.137] Most 'em dead 'cause they ain't follow they dream [01:10.032] The power of a higher entity entered me [01:12.157] Mentally, physically, spiritually, I'm on a whole different energy [01:15.111] **** the world, but I need you to remember me [01:16.947] I had doubt in myself 'cause I used to fear that you would look at me differently [01:20.105] If I ever changed, I'm numb to it now, I don't feel the same [01:22.956] A slave to the feeling, I'm breaking the chains [01:24.947] Tryna balance out the joy, the pain, the sun, the rain [01:27.762] My life and the fame, done lost the game [01:29.772] The guilt, the shame, my skin, my veins [01:31.553] My soul done rained so much on my heart [01:33.700] Really I don't know where to start [01:35.143] The irony of finding self in the dark [01:36.914] My n***a, truthfully, feel like it's two of me, I should've been on that ark [01:39.970] A love-hate relationship with my thoughts, I'm tryna shine in my own light [01:43.558] The realest n***a left in my own right [01:45.300] Helping you with your vices but can't seem to get a grip on my own life, yeah [01:50.575] I was on my way down, breakdowns, breakthroughs [01:52.919] Bitter 'bout my debut, gotta say I stayed true [01:55.431] Maybe why I stayed broke, I been on a goose chase [01:57.831] Gotta swallow pride when they see me, how the truth taste? [02:00.365] Off the beaten path like Blueface [02:02.339] On the North Side, had to be a Tuesday [02:05.055] Walkin' slow with your kids on a school day [02:07.416] Way past midnight suddenly my mood change [02:09.858] That's when the truth came, in New York hearing rumors [02:12.787] My sister was homeless, don't visit her often [02:15.239] Been years since we talked, number changed [02:17.564] Saw you and my heart broke in a couple ways [02:19.982] I can't believe when I seen you, I knew s**t was true [02:22.661] Stared in your eyes and I saw a different you [02:25.318] Skated off fast 'fore I could address it [02:27.527] Hope I run into you 'fore we both get to Heaven [02:29.394] We 'ight, we 'ight [02:34.027] You opened up my eyes and helped me see the light [02:38.962] We 'ight, we 'ight [02:44.060] You opened up my eyes and helped me see the light, ayy [02:52.086] Yeah, hahahaha [02:54.218] We just kickin' it, you know, ayy, woah [02:58.100] I'm here with all my friends [03:00.013] This is for the homies, for the homies, all the homies, what? What? [03:04.856] And the hoes [03:07.990] Hahahaha, yeah [03:09.872] Said this is for the homies, for the homies, all the homies, what? [03:15.059] And the hoes [03:17.826] Can't forget about the hoes, yeah [03:20.126] For the homies, for the homies, for the homies, what? What? [03:25.250] And the hoes [03:28.516] (Ayy, that s**t sound tight) [03:30.279] This is for the homies, for the homies, all the homies, what? What? [03:35.121] And the hoes [03:37.964] Hahahaha, yeah [03:39.279] Said this is for the homies, for the homies, all the homies, what? [03:45.081] And the hoes [03:47.772] Can't forget about the hoes, yeah [03:49.245] For the homies, for the homies, for the homies, what? What? [03:53.760] And the hoes