The Other Side-Presence

[00:15.815]Sometimes, it's not our tears that measure our pain [00:19.588]But it's the fake smiles we put on every day [00:22.796]I'm so tired of always acting like I'm okay [00:25.967]But it's just so much easier than even trying to explain [00:30.442]How I feel to all these people who just can't relate [00:33.564]When I smile, I wonder if they can see it's fake [00:37.814]Or if they can see the pain inside my very eyes [00:40.821]So I've become a master now at always wearing this disguise [00:44.850]Because I'm hurtin' [00:46.019]But I try my best to never show it [00:48.292]Ask how I am, I say I'm good, but I'm at the lowest [00:52.049]That I have been for as long as I've been alive [00:55.206]I'm hurtin' but won't let anyone know about what's inside of me [00:59.683]I'm in the depths of my own mind [01:01.702]I feel like I'm drowning [01:03.183]I'm fighting demons every day, but I feel surrounded [01:06.832]This is a battle, and I'm losing, I can't hold on no longer [01:10.474]They say you grow from all your pain, but I'm not getting stronger [01:14.379]I'm getting weaker as every day passes by [01:17.300]They told me that loves the answer, I responded that's a lie [01:20.903]'Cause I was in love and came out more broken than I went in [01:24.663]Now every single day, I'm just waiting for Heaven, 'cause [01:29.517]I don't wanna be alive [01:33.176]But I don't wanna take my life [01:36.873]'Cause I'm afraid of what's on the other side [01:42.683]Of this [01:44.208]Oh, I don't wanna lose my mind [01:47.843]And I don't wanna say goodbye [01:51.484]Oh, I just wanna fall into a world of blissfulness [01:58.982]But every day is feeling just a little bit colder [02:02.068]And every day, I feel this weight that's falling down on my shoulders [02:05.865]I understand it's in my brain, but I still feel I can't hold it [02:09.474]I feel like I am just a man, but I'm trying to carry boulders of weight [02:14.231]To distract me from this pain [02:16.561]Maybe I am just a fool that's inflicting this in my vains [02:20.003]And I'm on the highway that I've been trying to avoid [02:23.554]And still I wake up every day shocked that I'm still destroyed [02:27.875]Oh I [02:28.795]I don't wanna don't wanna be alive [02:32.306]But I don't wanna take my life [02:35.901]'Cause I'm afraid of what's on the other side [02:41.666]Of this [02:43.287]Oh, I don't wanna lose my mind [02:47.030]And I don't wanna say goodbye [02:50.593]Oh, I just wanna fall into a world of blissfulness [02:58.044]Oh, I don't wanna be alive [03:01.763]But I don't wanna take my life [03:05.420]'Cause I'm afraid of what's on the other side [03:10.952]Of this