This Grudge-Alanis Morissette

[00:00.00] [00:10.42]Fourteen years [00:13.35]thirty minutes [00:15.64]fifteen seconds I've [00:19.48]held this grudge [00:21.70] [00:22.49]Eleven songs [00:25.43]four full journals [00:27.83]thoughts of punishment [00:31.49]I've expended [00:33.97] [00:34.48]Not in contact [00:37.47]not a letter [00:39.97]such communication [00:43.55]telepathic [00:45.90]you've been vilified [00:49.55]used as fodder [00:52.21]you deserve a piece [00:55.53]of every record [00:58.00] [00:58.71]But who's it hurting now? [01:04.66]Who's the one that's stuck? [01:10.66]Who's it torturing now [01:14.34]with an antique knot in her stomach? [01:19.51] [01:21.89]I want to be big and let go [01:25.33]of this grudge that's grown old [01:27.89]all this time I've not known [01:31.49]how to rest this bygone [01:34.05]I wanna be soft and resolved [01:37.45]clean of slate and released [01:40.05]I wanna forgive for the both of us [01:45.61] [01:46.16]Like an abandoned house [01:49.98]dusty covered [01:52.95]furniture [01:55.98]still intact [01:58.17]If I visit it now [02:01.35]will I simply re-live it [02:04.99]somehow gratuitous [02:10.35] [02:11.09]But who's still aching now? [02:17.06]Who's tired of her own voice? [02:23.14]Who is it weighing down [02:26.90]With no gift from time of said healing [02:32.35] [02:34.44]I want to be big and let go [02:37.83]of this grudge that's grown old [02:40.30]all this time I've not known [02:43.89]how to rest this bygone [02:46.54]I wanna be soft and resolved [02:49.95]clean of slate and released [02:52.56]I wanna forgive for the both of us [02:58.64] [02:58.99]Maybe as I cut the cord [03:02.07]veils will lift from my eyes [03:04.95]Maybe as I lay this to rest [03:07.76]dead weight off my shoulders will rise [03:12.63] [03:14.72]Here I sit [03:17.67]much determined [03:19.90]ever ill-equipped [03:23.33]to draw this curtain [03:26.11]how this has entertained [03:29.60]validated [03:32.07]and has served me well [03:34.81]ever the victim [03:38.09] [03:38.70]But who's done whining now? [03:44.36]Who's ready to put down [03:50.41]this load I've carried longer [03:54.79]than I had cared to remember [04:00.09] [04:02.23]I want to be big and let go [04:05.52]of this grudge that's grown old [04:07.98]For the life of me I've not known [04:11.51]how to rest this bygone [04:14.15]I wanna be soft and resolved [04:17.50]clean of slate and released [04:20.17]I wanna forgive for the both of us [04:26.15]I want to be big and let go [04:29.64]of this grudge that's grown old [04:32.10]For the life of me I've not known [04:35.63]how to rest this bygone [04:38.25]I wanna be soft and resolved [04:41.65]clean of slate and released [04:44.26]I wanna forgive for the both of us [04:50.84] [04:54.14] [05:01.09]END