I See Everything

[00:01.80]I See Everything -La Dispute [00:08.810]Like any morning of my [00:10.550]Junior year [00:11.800]I stumble in the classroom [00:13.200]Late but this day I see [00:15.79]Faces I feel [00:16.339]An air like a funeral [00:17.639]Like a wake [00:18.669]As I sit down [00:20.779]Teacher speaking [00:21.969]Somewhat sombrely [00:23.389]But still confident and calm [00:25.399]Part eulogy [00:26.469]Her speech and [00:28.99]Part poem part celebration song [00:29.839]Her warmth and smile [00:31.459]She passes photocopies [00:32.709]Out to us of entries [00:34.679]From a journal [00:35.749]Kept so long ago [00:37.399]She starts to read [00:38.769]And suddenly [00:40.479]It's 1980 [00:42.559]March 5 [00:43.709]The cancer is furious [00:45.399]But our son is resilient [00:47.689]We have all the faith [00:49.298]We'll get through this [00:50.458]No matter what the end [00:52.158]Treatments are violent but [00:54.488]He keeps on smiling [00:56.158]It's amazing [00:57.278]Finding joy in the little things [00:59.998]April 12 [01:01.818]Andrew's appetite's improved [01:03.978]And we thank God everyday [01:05.827]But still it's hard sometimes [01:07.717]To see him in that scarecrow frame [01:10.807]July 9 [01:11.767]There's a suffering [01:12.926]When I look in his eyes [01:15.406]He's been through so much [01:17.55]We've all been through so much but [01:20.104]What incredible resolve [01:22.483]Our little boy shows only 7 [01:24.342]Standing face to face with death [01:26.552]He said it's easy to find people [01:29.32]Who have suffered worse than him [01:31.312]"Like Jesus suffered worse than anyone" [01:33.791]He told me last night [01:35.751]"When God abandoned him"and [01:37.780]September 20 [01:39.189]We've been playing in the yard [01:41.429]Lately his spirits are high [01:43.489]Although his blood counts aren't [01:46.259]October 14 [01:47.609]He feels tired all the time [01:49.329]November 30 [01:50.699]At the hospital again [01:52.668]It feels like home when we're here [01:54.828]December 8 [01:56.87]He's getting worse [01:59.337]January 19 [02:03.227]We buried our son today [02:07.746]Our youngest child [02:09.656]And while his death was ugly [02:12.425]We must not [02:14.245]Let it scare us from God [02:16.355]Abundant grace has restored him [02:19.44]A brand new body [02:20.884]And set him free from the torture [02:23.314]Finally rid of the cancer [02:25.194]Before the moment he left [02:27.454]He briefly wrested from death [02:29.963]Suddenly opened his eyes [02:31.963]Said "I see everything" [02:34.643]"I see everything" [02:36.603]And I will never forget it [02:39.873]The peace and the comfort [02:41.413]You displayed through a pain [02:43.473]That I can only imagine [02:46.453]The loss of a child [02:48.163]To the torture of cancer [02:50.623]Help me [02:52.323]Cause I can only imagine [02:54.543]How you recovered [02:55.843]Kept your faith [02:56.903]And held the brightness of life [02:59.143]Inside the smile of a child [03:01.41]You had to bury [03:03.611]And I will never forget him [03:06.371]Or your steadfast faith [03:08.131]No I will never forget you [03:10.281]Now six or seven years later [03:12.691]I'm devoid of all faith [03:14.821]I am empty of comfort [03:17.211]And I am weary of waiting [03:19.301]Though I've felt nowhere what you have [03:22.21]I see nothing at all [03:23.961]Though I've felt nowhere what he did [03:26.220]My eyes are closed