Christa Grace (Ode to the Broken Family)-Nak

[00:41.34]And you are more than just a memory the source in my identity [00:43.535]The hope in our heredity be coursing through our legacy [00:45.535]My fortress at the mercy to the forces of the enemy [00:48.35]So listen to the misery I pour into the melody [00:50.662]Christa something's wrong with me I'm losing my autonomy [00:53.97]I feel the devil wandering and ripping out song in me [00:55.664]A godless odyssey and honestly it's haunting me [00:58.226]My cardiac is hardening quality is darkening [01:00.851]A sinner dreads up upon his prison bed [01:02.755]Listen to his heart it feels as if the rhythm's dead [01:05.568]Weak like Delilah slipping scissors in his dreads [01:08.69]Redirect the breath of God to you so you could live instead [01:10.943]I thank God you never had to ponder [01:13.73]What it's like to live a life with an absent father [01:15.821]Accept my offer access my heart's wish [01:18.256]Watch every single color pass into scarlet [01:20.950]Now do me a favor baby shoot me a wager [01:23.258]And prove to me your confidence in hope ain't endangered [01:25.882]Loosely insane words I spew on this paper [01:28.389]Aimed at liberation but ain't soothing the anger [01:31.12]God I need you tell my sister [01:33.758]All I feel is that I miss her [01:36.135]Swings and slides turn rings of fire [01:38.510]My sights on the lights in the sky now fly [01:40.665]Christa watch me fly Christa watch me grow [01:43.540]Sister watch me triumph Sister watch me flow [01:46.103]These walls don't talk but they cry every night [01:48.605]I fight to survive but I die every time [01:51.165]I'm so happy and I thank the academy [01:53.728]For laughing as I play a man who battles for his sanity [01:56.541]There isn't any breath in me left [01:58.540]This is the true definition of identity theft [02:01.730]The sun above my head projects the pain within my shadow [02:03.729]The rain will spur the shame and pave the way in which I travel [02:06.353]Engraved upon my brain's your name;I need you here now [02:08.291]I take the time to pray so I could feel you near now [02:11.292]Scared to show my heart in fear that people might be sick of me [02:14.105]I know enough to know that you'd accept my inconsistency [02:15.540]Tell me that I'm loved and break it to me that I'm selfish [02:18.915]Embellished in my misery and only you could help it [02:21.481]Help me in my struggle in controlling my dysfunction [02:23.981]Help me as I recklessly indulge in my destruction [02:26.604]So hold me from this evil feeble folding to seduction [02:29.104]Lies I put my trust in;I love that I am nothing [02:31.605]Wait I hate that I am nothing And if only you were breathing [02:33.916]You'd be my freaking reason for the smile in which I sleep with [02:36.666]I need your reassurance when my hope has been defeated [02:38.855]So tell me I'll be fine and I don't care if you don't mean it