I Ain’t Done-Slaine

[00:22.75]I been caught up in the darkness and my anger and my hatred [00:25.56]I close my eyes and see myself hanging in the ba*****t [00:28.18]Dangling my legs, veins straining in my head [00:31.00]Blood draining in the tub, drowning in it [00:33.31]I been down in it: the mud [00:35.32]I mean down in it: the dirt [00:36.73]I mean really down in it, lost and found in it berserk [00:39.42]I've been burned by the fire, scorched by the flame [00:42.04]Of my own sins and desires so I call them by their names [00:45.18]When they come, greed, gluttony, sloth, envy, and lust [00:48.29]They're all enemies but they act so friendly with us [00:50.66]They roll with two other guys we call wrath and pride [00:53.78]Now I'm half as high as I am low [00:56.24]I can laugh and cry at the same time but I can't slow [00:59.60]Down feeling manicy, panicky, full of anarchy [01:02.46]Can it be so simple to get rid of them with Ritalin? [01:05.39]I'm trying to get into Heaven cutting out the middleman [01:07.70]Every time I drift away I see myself dead and buried in the cemetery [01:11.29]Accidentally staring at the sun [01:13.53]Shining through the filthy glass windows [01:15.28]Broken bottles in the bedsheets dangle bloody naked with a gun [01:19.16]I'm living in this tiny-ass room with the mattress on the floor [01:22.59]And an ashtray, look what I've become [01:24.77]Light up a half-sniped cigarette take my last swig of liquor [01:28.21]Smoke the filter down down till it's done [01:30.21]But I ain't done [01:31.71]I'm cold-blooded, stuck with the spirit of Hell frozen [01:33.96]Here's a hole inside my soul, my fear and my self-loathing [01:36.28]Got me hallucinating that all my walls are closing in [01:40.21]I think I'm losing my grip, there it goes again [01:42.84]These demons live inside of me, they talk to me and lie to me [01:45.90]Whisper homicidally, I'm trying to get them out of me [01:48.34]But I can see the side of me, it's just becoming clearer [01:51.02]I'm starting to hate the sight of me, I break the ****ing mirror [01:54.01]Please Jesus just just just listen to my prayer if you can please [01:56.86]I'm believing that these distances I've gone too far to leave [01:59.48]I'm breathing in the sickness this addiction and disease [02:02.40]This mess I'm in, this vicious is my missus and my mistresses [02:05.38]I'm twisted and ballistic, I'm addicted to this world [02:08.12]Forgive me for the pain that I've inflicted on my girl [02:11.06]And my son, I was stuck holding his bottle and a gun [02:13.86]And I couldn't get away where I was from [02:16.16]Every time I drift away I see myself dead and buried in the cemetery [02:19.57]Accidentally staring at the sun [02:21.88]Shining through the filthy glass windows [02:23.82]Broken bottles in the bedsheets dangle bloody naked with a gun [02:27.56]I'm living in this tiny-ass room with the mattress on the floor [02:31.00]And an ashtray, look what I've become [02:33.38]Light up a half-sniped cigarette take my last swig of liquor [02:36.69]Smoke the filter down down till it's done [02:39.13]But I ain't done