Melancholia-Sadistik

[00:06.78]My body's made of cells [00:07.75] [00:08.50]and cells are made to keep you caged [00:09.94] [00:10.46]I keep awake to celebrate [00:12.42]my sweet escape [00:13.71]I've seen the flames of this hell [00:15.18]and made it either way [00:16.76]So why be afraid, It's okay [00:18.82] [00:19.77]It's just fire it's just love it's just us [00:22.81] [00:23.46]It's just trust it's just this once [00:25.46] [00:26.88]When these small talk graces [00:28.20]keep me warm [00:29.38]Like a small-pox blanket in a storm [00:31.81]When the rainfalls and entrenches [00:33.98]all that gets touched [00:35.23]Making evergreens to defend [00:36.60] [00:37.15]against the next one [00:38.62]I'll take a Redrum neat or on the rocks [00:41.06] [00:41.64]One of these cocktails will be a molotov [00:44.01]If I keep it up eyes shut [00:46.80]and my feet are stuck [00:48.13]Icarus wings adjust just [00:49.59]so I can reach the sun [00:51.52]So I can sing with such ardor [00:53.35]I deplete my lungs [00:54.35]And my heart beats so much [00:56.27]that it starts seizing up [00:57.73] [00:58.51]These are the symptoms of an optimist [01:01.11]Melancholia kissed him [01:02.79]on his bottom lip [01:04.17]And here I am, a picture [01:05.83]of accomplishment [01:06.85]Mixture of the opposites [01:07.66] [01:08.58]insecure and confident [01:10.26] [01:11.18]So is this a path of glory [01:13.01]Or a dead end to a lonely [01:15.09]saddened story [01:16.06]Where I buried my confession [01:17.80]I married my depression [01:19.31]Now the holy matrimony's [01:20.48]grown to owing alimony [01:21.62]Show me what I hide beneath [01:23.69]my grin under my deceitful skin's [01:25.53]Another guy I'd like to meet [01:27.26]I wonder why he seems so grim [01:28.85] [01:29.54]Every piece of him [01:30.46]they subdivide to equal bits [01:32.13]To pitch into the ocean told 'em [01:33.78]love is blind so sink or swim [01:35.16] [01:35.89]And so I oblige breast [01:37.19]stroking side to side [01:38.61]Till the stroke inside [01:39.54]my breast gets hold and I abide [01:41.89]And so by and by I try to [01:43.70]fight a tide that’s tidal sized [01:45.43]Until my vital signs subside [01:46.71]and I write my goodbyes [01:48.32]To my friends that [01:49.30]are dropping like flies [01:50.76] [01:51.68]It's a trend that I'll follow in time [01:53.63] [01:54.74]I pretend that I ought to be fine [01:56.64] [01:57.21]Getting dizzy once again from [01:58.61]these wandering eyes of mine [02:00.86]I need some R & R I think [02:02.61]I'll drink some R & R [02:04.17]Sip spirits lift spirits then [02:05.40]I'll raise the bar at bars [02:06.66] [02:07.34]I bring the darkest part of [02:08.75]myself door to door [02:10.29]Let's press our chests together [02:11.54]then we'll have a heart to heart [02:13.39]I saw a fallen star [02:14.71]and didn't wish upon it [02:16.31]If you're not that superstitious [02:17.91]you don't get that disappointed [02:19.74]I'll never say I'm different, [02:21.13]cause I've never made a difference [02:22.54]And I've yet to pay attention [02:24.19]to the debt that I've avoided [02:25.82]I set to write a portrait [02:27.23]not emotional confessions [02:29.15]This is spring cleaning for a [02:30.65]closet full of bone collections [02:32.38]I'm not alone the [02:33.31] [02:33.89]monochrome is so infectious [02:35.57]But I won't regret it if [02:37.02]I follow all my own directions [02:39.20]