If I

[00:00.90]Flobots - If I [00:02.15]If I hadn't been a quiet introspective kid [00:21.86]If I hadn't been a nerd, wouldn't have met with him [00:24.17]If we hadn't observed we'd be the best of friends [00:26.48]That preferred the spoken word to the toke and binge [00:28.86]If momma hadn't died when I was young [00:30.85]Would me and sis been so tight from jump? [00:33.61]If dad hadn't lost his mind to a disease [00:36.17]Would I be up here askin' ya'll to notice me? [00:38.48]In the dark times, didn't know where the path went [00:40.92]I was close to the edge like Grand Master Flash said [00:43.48]It was hands of my friends that held me back [00:45.98]Yes, without them I'd MJ keep slidin' backwards [00:48.16]Or be a hypocrite like some others have been [00:50.54]If that and the other hadn't happened [00:52.98]Don't know that I'd ever been Brer Rabbit [00:55.48]Askin' how many if's between hero and has-been? [00:57.48]If I, if I, if I had only known [01:03.66]That I would be a lamb to the slaughter [01:07.48]Now I know [01:08.29]If I, if I, if I had only known [01:12.23]I know, I bet it only makes me stronger [01:16.60]Now I know, now I know [01:18.98]Now I know, know, know [01:21.41]Now I know, now I know [01:23.73]Now I know, know, know [01:26.98]If I hadn't grown up in the 80's [01:29.17]Experiencing the various things that made me [01:31.41]Would I still be standing center stage [01:33.54]Trying to innovate new ways to demonstrate? [01:35.79]If mommy-daddy hadn't turned off Mork and Mindy [01:38.48]To inform us divorce was pending [01:40.48]Would him and me have spent these 23 years in a frenzy [01:43.29]Moving back and forth with such forceful energy? [01:45.66]I remember when I was a little baby [01:47.79]Lying there alone on my pillow casing [01:50.48]Upset already I could feel the aging [01:52.85]The urge to return was debilitating [01:55.04]And maybe I'm still afraid and need to [01:58.04]Cry a little harder for the world of play things [02:00.98]Stop looking back on these silly day dreams [02:03.16]Sing along with me if you feel the same way [02:05.60]If I, if I, if I had only known [02:09.60]That I would be a lamb to the slaughter [02:14.16]Now I know [02:15.91]If I, if I, if I had only known [02:20.73]I know, I bet it only makes me stronger [02:23.91]Now I know, now I know [02:25.98]Now I know, know, know [02:28.29]Now I know, now I know [02:30.73]Now I know, know, know [02:33.35]If I had known what awaited was unplanned [02:35.98]If I had known the blade was in a loved one's hand [02:39.17]If I had known of the possible injury [02:41.04]If I had known the altar was meant for me [02:43.42]But now I know nobody can predict events [02:45.35]And now I know there's cracks in the picket fence [02:48.23]Now I know that something else exists [02:50.16]And now I know a life can be built from this [02:53.04]If I had known emotions would still remain [02:55.17]If I had known that time wouldn't heal the pain [02:57.79]If I had known the intent of the injury [03:00.16]If I had known the altar wasn't meant for me [03:02.73]Now I know there's treasure hidden in these scars [03:04.85]Now I know there's presence in an empty yard [03:07.10]Now I know what it took for me to survive [03:09.66]But now I know where to go to become alive [03:12.29]If I, if I, if I had only known [03:17.79]That I would be a lamb to the slaughter [03:21.35]Now I know [03:22.91]If I, if I, if I had only known [03:27.48]I know, I bet it only makes me stronger [03:31.10]Now I know, now I know [03:33.22]Now I know, know, know [03:34.85]Now I know, now I know [03:37.73]Now I know, know, know