How Could You Leave Us-NF

[00:00.00] 作词 : Nate Feuerstein/Tommee Profitt [00:00.50] 作曲 : Nate Feuerstein/Tommee Profitt [00:01.00](This song deals with NF's mother's addiction to popping pills and the neglect he felt throughout his life)
（此歌予NF滥用药物致死的母亲，并倾诉无人关爱的感想） [00:05.47](He feels that she chose the pills over her own kids and therefore, and that she left him standing in the dust)
（他感到母亲宁愿选择药物也不顾孩子，甚至任他自生自灭） [00:09.60] [00:10.25]How could you leave us so unexpected?
你怎能突然扔下我们不管？ [00:16.70]We were waiting, we were waiting
我们等着，等着你回岸 [00:22.45]For you but you just left us
对你等待却是枉然 [00:27.88]We needed you, I needed you
我们需要...我需要你 [00:33.36] [00:34.22]Yo, I don't know what it's like to be addicted to pills
我不知道k药到底会有什么感受 [00:37.05]But I do know what it's like to be a witness it kills
但我清楚目睹至亲死去有多难受 [00:39.80]Mama told me she love me, I'm thinking this isn't real
妈妈说她有多爱我，我真的觉得很荒谬 [00:42.66]I think of you when I get a whiff of that cigarette smell, yeah
闻到烟臭时，你的身影才在我脑海停留 [00:46.55]Welcome to the bottom of hell
欢迎来到痛苦深窖 [00:48.40]They say pain is a prison, let me out of my cell
人们说痛楚如囚，我只想逃离这苦牢 [00:51.20]You say you proud of me, but you don't know me that well
你说以我为荣，可你对我根本从不知晓 [00:54.00]Sit in my room, tears running down my face and I yell
坐在房里，泪不成声的我却无助地吼叫 [00:57.00]Into my pillowcases, you say you coming to get us
前一秒还在我耳边说好放学要为我接送 [00:59.78]Then call 'em a minute later just to tell us you not, I'm humiliated
下一秒你却反悔，留我在校门口无地自容 [01:03.40]I'm in a room with a parent that I don't barely know
我和我压根不熟悉的父母在房间里待着 [01:05.99]Some lady in the corner watching us, while she taking notes
调查的人在角落作着笔记，看着我们无关痒痛 [01:09.00]I don't get it mom, don't you want to watch your babies grow?
我真不明白，妈妈你真不想看着孩子长大？ [01:11.77]I guess that pills are more important, all you have to say is no
哪怕放不下这些药丸，只要你肯拒绝就足够 [01:14.82]But you won't do it will you? You gon' keep popping 'til those pills kill you
可你根本不会这样做，不到死你都不会回头 [01:18.45]I know you gone but I can still feel you
明知你去世 却仍觉得你还没走 [01:20.69] [01:24.45]Why would you leave us?
你为什么离开我们？ [01:26.66]Why would you leave us?
为什么要离开我们？ [01:30.35]How could you leave us here?
你怎么能这样一走了之？ [01:34.65]How could you leave us?
怎么能撇下我们不管？ [01:36.55]Why would you leave us?
为什么你要抛弃我们？ [01:38.55]Oh, Hey... [01:44.88] [01:45.50]I got this picture in my room and it kills me
看着家庭照也能将我折磨到底 [01:48.07]But I don't need a picture of my mom, I need the real thing
我并不想照片里的母亲，我要真实的你 [01:51.30]Now a relationship is something we won't ever have
如今你我天各一方无法回到从前 [01:53.88]Why do I feel like I lost something that I never had?
为什么我会觉得心中若有缺陷？ [01:57.00]You shoulda been there when I graduated
我毕业的时候身边该有你 [01:59.00]Told me you love me and congratulations
告诉你爱我，然后为我欢庆【NF高中毕业那年母亲刚好去世】 [02:01.20]Instead you left us at the window waiting
而不是留我们在窗前白白等你 [02:03.53]Where you at mom? We're too young to understand where you at huh?
你在哪，妈？是不是我们年少无知找不到你在哪里 嗯？ [02:07.55]Yeah, I know those drugs got you held captive
我很清楚那些毒药让你着迷不已 [02:10.75]I can see it in your eyes, they got your mind captured
我能看到你眼里的药瘾，药性将你占据 [02:13.40]Some say it's fun to get the high but I am not laughing
有人谈起嗑药有多痛快，我却毫无笑意 [02:16.35]What you don't realise and what you not grasping
你嗑药是因为无处诉苦并非贪心 [02:19.10]That I was nothing but a kid who couldn't understand
我作为一个孩子可能未必能明白你 [02:22.00]I ain't gon' say that I forgive you cause it hasn't happened
我不会忘记你，因为不想就这样放弃 [02:24.80]I thought that maybe I feel better as time passes
心想时过境迁，痛苦也许不值一提 [02:27.95]If you really cared for me, then where you at then?
你要真的关心我，那你到底去了哪里？ [02:31.26] [02:33.24]Why would you leave us?
你为什么离开我们？ [02:35.30]Why would you leave us?
为什么要离开我们？ [02:38.95]How could you leave us here?
你怎么能这样一走了之？ [02:43.25]How could you leave us? Why would you leave us?
怎么能撇下我们不管？为什么要抛弃我们？ [02:47.20]Oh, Hey [02:52.88] [02:53.77]Our last conversation, you and I were sat in the living room
上一次对话，你还和我坐房间里交心 [02:56.78]Talking 'bout my music and I brought you something to listen to
谈起我的音乐，就给了几首小样让你听听 [02:59.93]You started crying, telling me this isn't you
你却哭了起来，斥责我这样下去不行 [03:02.59]Couple weeks later, guess you were singing a different tune
要能撑多几星期，你肯定会改变反对的声音 [03:05.45]You took them pills for the last time, didn't you?
取而代之你最后还是沾上几颗药丸 [03:08.15]They took you from us once, guess they came back to finish you
它们曾经从我们带走了你，如今却是一去不复返 [03:11.25]Crying my eyes out in the studio is difficult
我在录音棚哭红了眼是有多丑 [03:13.92]Music is the only place that I can go to speak to you
只有音乐能让我述出对你的悲愁 [03:16.55]It took everything inside of me to not scream at your funeral
唯有这样才让我在你葬礼上忍住泪流 [03:19.57]Sitting in my chair, that person talking was pitiful
坐椅子上的我说起话也可怜难受 [03:22.10]I wish you were here mama but every time I picture you
多希望你在这里，可每当想起你 [03:25.33]All I feel is pain, I hate the way I remember you
我只觉得痛苦，我憎恨思念的痛楚 [03:27.99]They found you on the floor, I could tell that you felt hallow
他们发现你倒在地上，我能描述出你的绝望 [03:30.99]Gave everything you had plus your life to them pill bottles
给这该死的药丸付出了生命和所有 [03:33.70]You gave everything you had plus your life to them pill bottles
你把一切和生命都倒进装药丸的瓶口 [03:36.75]Don't know if you hear me or not, but if you still watching ma
不知你听到与否，可你就看着我难受 妈！ [03:40.66] [03:41.55]Why would you leave us?
你为什么离开我们？ [03:43.90]Why would you leave us?
为什么要离开我们？ [03:46.95]How could you leave us here?
你怎么能这样一走了之？ [03:51.80]How could you leave us?
怎么能撇下我们不管？ [03:53.85]Why would you leave us?
为什么要抛弃我们？ [03:55.75]Oh, Hey... [04:00.66] [04:10.00](Sobbing) Sometimes I think about like
（啜泣）有时我也想过.. [04:13.66]Sometimes I think about things like, you know
有时我会那样想，你知道吗 [04:18.20]When I have kids, you won't be there, you know?
要是我有了自己的孩子，你却不在那，你懂吗？ [04:26.85]You won't be there for any of that
发生什么事你都不会在那里 [04:39.80]I'll never get to see you again
反正再也见不到你了 [04:43.99]Sometimes I wish I would have just called you
有时我想当初要是打个电话给你 [04:47.15]I wish I would have just picked up the phone, wish you were here
想着要是拿起电话，你在另一头就好了 [04:52.17]I mean you should of been there for us
你本该在这里照顾好我们 [04:55.00]You should have been here, those pills got you, right?
你本来留在这里的，是该死的药把你带走了，对不？ [05:02.66]Them pills got you, right?
该死的药把你带走了，对不？ [05:10.60]I wish you were here
我希望你还在这