This Time-Ivan B

[00:14.01]I let somebody in, and then it killed me
我让一个人进去，然后她带着我 [00:15.50]Sometimes I hate that I always feel things
我总能感觉得到有时候 [00:17.55]'Cause everything I care for is always leaving
因为我所关心的一切总是离开 [00:18.98]Me and my heart need to have a meeting, look
我和我的心需要开个会，听着 [00:21.14]Fighting all the demons that are living in my mind
与我心中所有的的恶魔战斗 [00:23.31]Can't be looking back, when you leave it all behind
当你把它这一切都抛在脑后,不要回头看 [00:24.95]"Coulda, woulda, shoulda," yeah, I hear it all the time
“可以，可以，应该，”是的。我一直在听 [00:27.09]I got so much to say, but all I say is, "nevermind"
我有好多话要说，但我只是想说，“没关系” [00:28.83]So let me let you in for a couple of minutes
所以我让你进去几分钟 [00:30.04]Praying to God like, "Could you give me a minute?"
向上帝祈祷，“你能给我一点时间吗?” [00:31.73]Forgive me for the ways that I've been living
原谅我的生活方式 [00:33.17]I said that I'd be different
我说过我会与众不同 [00:34.27]I know you don't see a difference, but
我知道你看不出有什么不同，但是 [00:35.36]You gave me this life, I'm just playing the cards
你给了我这样的生活，我却只是在玩牌 [00:36.81]Every time I pray, I don't know where to start
每次我祈祷，我都不知道从哪里开始 [00:38.96]Grocery shopping, never filling the cart
杂货店购物，永远不要填满购物车 [00:40.40]There's food for thought, I need food for the heart, yeah
我需要思想的食物，我需要心灵的食物，是的 [00:42.94] [00:44.73]Got my hoodie up, earphones all in
穿上我的连帽衫，戴上耳机 [00:45.87]I didn't go to work, I hardly call in
我不去上班，几乎不打电话 [00:47.76]Told my mom, "Look, I gotta be all in"
告诉我的母亲，“听着，我要全力以赴” [00:49.71]Friends hit me up like, "When we ballin'?"
朋友们给我打电话说，“我们什么时候去” [00:51.36]The girl I used to love, we're hardly talkin'
我曾经爱过的女孩，我们几乎不说话 [00:53.45]'Cause I'm locked and I'm chasing a dream, sleepwalkin'
因为我被锁住了，我在追逐一个梦，梦游者 [00:55.28]I'm lost in the fact that money's just costin' me
我迷失在这样一个事实中 钱只是我的附属品 [00:57.73]This the life that I need, all this ink that I bleed
这是我所需要的生活，所有我流血的墨水 [01:00.68]Is to paint you a picture they don't want you to see
就是给你画一幅他们不想让你看到的画吗 [01:02.03]That they don't want you to be, to find the happier things
他们不希望你这样，去寻找更快乐的事情吧 [01:03.93]Money, clothes, women all material things
钱，衣服，女人，都是物质的东西 [01:05.62]Will walk out and leave, but one day you'll see
我们将会离开，但总有一天你会看到 [01:07.27]Tryna find my way on this one-way street
试着在这条单行道上找到属于我的路 [01:09.11]Staring at this road like it's you and me
看着这条路，就像你和我 [01:10.66] [01:11.46]I'm not gonna run this time
这次我不会跑了 [01:17.78]From what I've buried deep inside
从我的内心深处 [01:25.22]It's time I left it all behind
是时候把这一切抛在脑后了 [01:31.20]So I won't, I won't, I won't
所以我不会，我不会，我不会 [01:37.73]Run this time
这次跑吧 [01:39.37] [01:41.41]"I love you more" to "how you been?"
“更爱你”到“你好吗？” [01:42.91]Same feelings every time again
每次都是同样的感觉 [01:44.46]Said we'd stay friends, but we ain't friends
说我们会继续做朋友，但我们不是朋友 [01:46.65]Yeah, come on now, really man, it feels so silly
是啊，来吧，伙计，感觉好傻 [01:48.29]You feel that you get me, but you don't really get me
你觉得你了解我，但你并没有真正了解我 [01:50.50]You don't wanna talk, you think you know what I'm feeling
你不想说话，你以为你知道我的感受 [01:52.19]Oh you keep it a hundred? Okay, I'll keep it a milli
哦 你留着一百块？好吧，我留着它 [01:53.69]You lost out, and I'm coping
你输了，我在应付 [01:55.43]Tryna hang these feelings, but I'm roped in
我试着把这些感觉挂起来，但我被绑住了 [01:57.07]When I say I'm heartless, I ain't jokin'
当我说我没心没肺的时候，我不是在开玩笑 [01:58.72]Why do I keep something with me that's broken?
为什么我要把坏掉的东西带着身上？ [02:00.42]Losing my patience, I'm out of it
失去耐心，我就完了 [02:02.36]Bringing up things that I've done like I'm proud of it
提起我做过的事，就好像我为此感到自豪一样 [02:04.25]Making myself, can you tell that I'm adamant?
你能看出我很固执吗？ [02:06.25]Christmas is coming and I'm wanting all of it
圣诞节就要到了，我想要一切 [02:08.09]If you don't get it now, you gotta get it yourself
如果你现在还不明白，你就得自己去拿 [02:09.48]Nobody thought I would be here, nobody thought I would sell
没人想到我会在这里，没人想到我会卖掉它 [02:11.42]I look at myself, only one thing I can tell
我看着自己，只有一件事能告诉自己 [02:13.17]If I could be anybody, it'd be nobody else
如果我能成为任何人，那一定不是别人 [02:15.01]24/7 I'm lookin' for heaven, I wonder, am I doin' enough?
24/7我在寻找天堂，我在想，我做的还不够多吗？ [02:18.15]You give us this freedom to we do what we want—
你给了我们自由 让我们做我们想做的事 [02:20.70]And this sin is just put in our cups
这罪孽就放在我们的杯子里 [02:22.04]So tell me what I'm supposed to do
所以告诉我该怎么做 [02:23.64]Show me what I'm supposed to see
让我看看我该看到什么 [02:25.48]'Cause seems like everybody knows who I am
因为好像每个人都知道我是谁 [02:27.43]And the kind of person I'm supposed to be
以及我应该是什么样的人 [02:29.12]Finding myself in a world that is lost
发现自己在一个迷失的世界 [02:31.01]My back has been living on walls
我的背一直压在墙上 [02:32.60]Gripping this mic like it's all that is left
握着麦克风，就像它是剩下的 [02:34.45]Without music I'm nothing at all, 'cause
没有音乐我什么都不是，因为 [02:35.99] [02:36.68]I'm not gonna run this time
这次我不跑了 [02:42.87]From what I've buried deep inside
从我的内心深处 [02:50.43]It's time I left it all behind
是时候把这一切都抛在脑后了 [02:56.56]So I won't, I won't, I won't
所以我不会，我不会，我不会 [03:02.89]Run this time
这次跑吧 [03:04.63] [03:18.89]I'm a waiter waiting on tables
我是服务员 [03:20.43]Waiting for tables to turn
等待转机 [03:21.52]You live and you learn
活到老学到老 [03:22.27]In this life it ain't about the money that you made
在这一生中，最重要的不是钱 [03:24.11]But what did you earn
但是你赚了多少钱呢 [03:25.90]Did you give love or did you take it
你是付出了爱还是接受了爱 [03:27.25]When she said "I love you," did you break it?
当她说“我爱你”时，你打破了吗？ [03:28.99]When she started to cry, did you face it?
当她开始哭的时候，你面对她了吗？ [03:30.74]When you broke her heart, did you replace it?
你伤了她的心，你换了吗？ [03:32.48]Looking back at my past, I'm regretting a lot of it
回首过去，我后悔了很多 [03:34.97]All in my head, I've been tryna get out of it
所有的一切都在我的脑海里，我一直试着摆脱它 [03:36.61]Losing myself just to find who I am
迷失自我只是为了找到我是谁 [03:38.11]Taking a leap just to find where I stand
只为为了找到自己的立场 [03:39.86]Getting impatient, like when will I make it?
越来越不耐烦了，比如我什么时候能赶到 [03:41.65]They tell me stop waiting, like go out and take it
他们告诉我别等了，就像出去拿一样 [03:43.49]Chasing a dream, but, like, what am I chasing?
追逐梦想，但是，就像，我在追求什么？ [03:45.24]Alone in my room, I've been constantly pacing
一个人在我的房间里，我一直在不停的踱来踱去 [03:47.08]I look at myself and the things that I've said
我审视自己和我说过的话 [03:48.92]Things I've let go, all the people I've kept
我失去的一切，所有我留下的人 [03:50.47]Investing in love, can you tell I'm in debt?
投资爱情，你能看出我的情债吗？ [03:52.31]We fell so in love, like, did you forget?
我们坠入爱河，就像，你忘了吗？ [03:54.00]Forget it, I'll pick up the mess and I'll leave it to rest
算了吧，我来收拾残局，让它好好休息 [03:56.30]Close up the hole that you left in my chest
把你留在我心、胸口的洞补上 [03:57.94]In love with a stranger, man, who would've guessed?
爱上一个陌生人，伙计，谁能猜到呢？ [03:59.78]So I pick up this pen like it's all I got left
所以我拿起这只笔 就像剩下的这支笔一样 [04:01.39] [04:05.03]I'm not gonna run this time
我这次我不跑了 [04:11.71]From what I've buried deep inside
从我的内心深处 [04:18.82]It's time I left it all behind
是时候把这一切抛在脑后了 [04:24.85]So I won't, I won't, I won't
所以我不会，我不会，我不会 [04:31.53]Run this time
这次跑吧