Somewhere In Between-Token

[00:37.38]Yeah [00:38.48]No matter what plane I'm inside of and what ocean I'm on top of [00:42.86]Distance from everything is still the problem [00:45.48]Everyone I need is down thousands of feet [00:48.12]And everyone who's with me now, I pay 'em to be [00:51.33]I'm in Germany with merch money in my lap [00:54.48]But all I think about is my mom is home with a bad back [00:57.37]And every Monday she's hunched over, draggin' out the trash [01:00.41]That should be me [01:01.28]But she won't say it 'cause she don't want to distract [01:03.64]I don't even talk to dad, I think that whole thing is ruined [01:06.64]He don't reach out 'cause he just feels like he's intruding [01:09.75]But I don't reach out [01:10.83]'Cause every time we catch up it's so obvious [01:13.64]These are things we shouldn't just be catching up about, like [01:16.35]What country you in? What house you been staying in? [01:19.54]What's your manager's name again? How much you payin' him? [01:22.78]I don't blame him though, I don't keep him up to speed [01:25.52]If I'm not a bad son, I'm probably somewhere in between [01:28.62]Now when I get recognized in public, they say I'm standoffish [01:31.36]Really I'm just awkward when I'm talking [01:33.99]When you see how shy I am, you probably think that I ain't poppin' [01:36.86]So when you call my name, don't call it again if I ain't respondin' [01:40.05]But my producer hang with artists who are way bigger than me [01:43.72]And they get recognized every time in the street [01:46.26]So when I'm with my producer out to eat [01:48.16]I pray a fan approaches so I can make him say [01:50.71]"True, he's doing his thing too" [01:52.56]****ing I ain't famous, guess I'm somewhere in between [01:55.28]If I was famous, [01:56.04]I wouldn't have to promote my song on this livestream [01:58.22]'Cause my manager told me to, he said my plays aren't the best [02:01.21]So I fake a smile to hundreds of fans like [02:03.70]"It's my fastest growing yet! Look I'm happy, don't forget!" [02:06.40]Mom's back is broke again [02:07.92]Still tryna get me off pills that control the stress [02:10.28]How I'm supposed to tell my older sister that I'm still depressed? [02:13.33]With merch money in my lap, [02:14.67]But she ain't made a ****ing dollar yet [02:16.80]Today I read a comment telling me that I'm a gimmick [02:19.73]With controversial storylines to get attention [02:22.75]A few fans came to my defense like "We were boys" [02:25.50]I wanted to tell those fans that maybe he has a point [02:28.68]I wrote a song about a kid who got bullied, [02:30.82]It's called "Exception" [02:31.84]And the part I didn't mention, was Andy was a real person [02:36.62]And someone I befriended [02:37.92]Then I left him for another group of friends who used to torment him [02:41.21]I made money of off "Exception" and off of Andy [02:44.02]In interviews they treated me like a hero [02:47.00]I wrote a song about how ****ed up social media was [02:50.00]And started dating a chick [02:51.06]Who wanted me to post her to get her followers up [02:53.28]So no matter how many ****ing comments that I read [02:56.05]Tellin' me how much that I've helped them to grow [02:57.82]And follow their dreams [02:59.13]I'ma still feel like a coward, the hero just ain't me [03:02.04]But to make them feel better, [03:03.08]Just tell them I'm somewhere in between [03:05.20]Between somewhere [03:18.46]Yeah, ayy [03:31.43]Success is coming in heavy, I think I'm changing already [03:34.45]My life is intimidating so friends just want to impress me [03:37.65]Some wear Supreme to impress, some bring a gun to impress me [03:40.77]But none of that does impress me [03:42.34]Whether if it's love or envy [03:43.89]Mark was tryin' to get me with Em, [03:45.71]I told him I wasn't ready [03:46.94]Maybe that was a mistake [03:48.08]Maybe I would've blown up already [03:50.13]Wonder if Interscope was mad [03:51.77]That I didn't pick up when they called again [03:53.89]Subliminal disses from legends are still compliments [03:56.93]Tour money had me talkin' shit [04:00.05]'Til I spend sixty thousand on clothes and went broke [04:02.77]Manager screamed at me, watch your tone [04:05.08]See, when couple thousand in the crowd tell me yes [04:07.83]It's hard to tell me no [04:09.29]I'm still in Germany with merch money in my lap, bitch [04:12.32]I'm countin' it even if I already double checked [04:14.99]There's no better feeling than holding your parents rent [04:18.01]I know I could still fail, but they only see success [04:21.17]And I'm somewhere in between it [04:24.19]This plane is too high, you can't reach it [04:27.16]No service, no service, no service, I got no plan [04:30.44]Ain't nobody knockin' on my door except the post man