The End-Blue October

[00:28.14]Here alone, standing barefoot in our lawn, [00:30.76]Worms squeezing their way through my toes [00:33.16]Tonight that’s how it goes. [00:34.90]I’m at your window kneeling quiet, [00:36.74]I thought at least I’d maybe try to get your head right [00:37.91]Get your heart right [00:39.65]“Let him go!” [00:41.12] [00:41.68]Then through the glass I see your dress fall to the floor [00:44.38]As he embraces every inch of you [00:46.59]The woman I adore. [00:48.21]I can’t believe the way you’re bending [00:50.04]Can’t believe this neverending moaning asking him for more [00:53.47]I heard you begging him for more [00:55.21] [00:55.93]How far will I go [00:59.67]To make it feel right? “Come home” [01:03.03]I have to fix this on my own [01:07.59] [01:09.69]Replace my heart, [01:14.74]Cause I’m convinced mine broke the day I let us end [01:23.29]Replace my heart, [01:28.35]I don’t wanna live by coping, I’m done with hoping…..end [01:36.36] [01:40.11]I creeped in close enough to see the way he touched her, [01:43.42]From her feet across her knees, inside her sweetest spot [01:45.95]he pleased and pleased her. [01:47.23]I turned around and tried to take control, [01:48.66]but no control was capable [01:50.76]It was a centerfold of how less than low can possibly go. [01:53.52] [01:53.86]I squeezed the life into my brain [01:55.39]Like pushing knives into a vein [01:57.26]I’ve gotta get, I’ve gotta get, I said I’ve gotta get inside [02:00.18]So to the back window I crawl in silent standing in the darkness [02:03.61]Of my living room, my living room [02:05.28]This used to be my home [02:20.00]Replace my heart [02:26.82]Cause I’m convinced mine broke the day I let us end [02:35.27]Replace my heart [02:40.06]I don’t wanna live by coping, I’m done with hoping…end [02:48.49] [02:52.15]I turn the doorknob with two fingers to be slow [02:54.73]Enough to sneak into the room among the corner darkness gloom [02:58.44]I had to see this happening. [03:00.14]He pushed himself so deep inside her clapping rang [03:02.78]and bounced off every wooden walled room [03:05.68]And that’s when all went silent blank except the color red [03:08.82]As I walked calmly numbing paralyzed beside the bed [03:11.83]I said “I know I’m not allowed to be here. I just had to see [03:15.15]How good this new man really ***** you. [03:17.22]Cause you both been ******* me.” [03:19.31] [03:19.67]“So now I planned the last thing you can both do as a pair [03:22.40]I tie both blindfolds tight around your ******* eyes to blind your stare [03:25.94]I don’t want to alarm you, [03:27.33]but I figured we could end this in [03:28.95]what seems easy quick and painless [03:31.12]So I’ll get down to business [03:33.08]I choose you first, there’s a gun, its at your head [03:36.04]So laugh at me just one more time but keep your face inside the bed [03:39.45]You sit and watch me while I do this **** and learn from what I’ve said.” [03:43.04]I cocked the pistol pulled the trigger, and all I saw was red [03:46.59][02:07.22] [03:47.41][02:07.88]How far will I go [03:51.15][02:11.74]To make it feel right? “Come home” [03:54.12][02:14.68]I’m moving forward to the bedroom door [03:58.85][02:19.36] [03:58.97] [03:59.64]Then the screaming oh the screaming [04:01.88]It’s nice to see you scared [04:03.51]Of such a weak and stupid husband [04:05.17]Who knows you never really cared [04:06.83]I’ll leave you with a question that I need to hear from your head [04:10.07]Was all this worth it knowing u have just seconds left to live? [04:13.20] [04:13.57]Now think about your answer, laying face down on the bed [04:16.39]I cocked the pistol pulled the trigger and all I saw was red [04:19.80]I gently stroke her arm as she lies lifeless on her back [04:23.20]Then placed the barrel in my mouth [04:25.11]All I saw was black. [04:37.89]