Black Dahlia-Angel Haze

[00:00.410]You a should song write where the concept is, [00:03.930]You're basically writing like a love letter, or like a piece of advice [00:08.980]To your mother, when she was your age [00:14.420]I don't know [00:16.220]Maybe I would write you a happy ending [00:18.780]I would rearrange the pieces to your sad beginning [00:22.040]I would put you far away from the decaying roots that bore you [00:26.210]And let you experience all the ways that happiness [00:29.520]could bloom before you [00:31.570]Or maybe I'm nave, [00:34.210]Maybe I'm just a kid who thought that if she could plant a seed [00:37.060]It would somehow grow inside you [00:38.890]Spent so much of my time wishing you were different [00:41.180]But reality is that, where life could never be provisioned [00:43.870]But if I could wish for one thing, I'd go back and I'd fix it [00:46.510]I'd tackle all your obstacles and kill them with precision [00:49.270]And better the intentions of every single person [00:51.920]Who play a part in you learning exactly what your worth is [00:54.720]I'd shower you with purpose, I'd wipe hate off the surface [00:57.470]I'd reshape all your pain and make it worth ********* [01:00.670]No more feeling worthless, no more ******* searching [01:03.000]No more of that fraud ****, nobody else could hurt you [01:05.700]Yeah, said nobody else could hurt you [01:08.650]And if they ever tried too I'd wipe 'em from the Earth too [01:11.300]Cuz I know that you hurting baby, I know that you tired too [01:14.040]I know that you been running from everything that's behind you [01:16.690]I know that you've been burying everything deep inside you [01:19.390]I can see it killing you, wish that I could revive you [01:22.280]But I'm stuck sitting in this time frame [01:24.930]Struggling with my demons and playing these stupid mind game [01:27.590]One day it could get better, maybe it could get better [01:30.330]Maybe we could change ****, no more inclement weather [01:33.080]Know you hated your mom, know it went through your mind [01:35.770]You were just like me, wish that you had more time [01:38.520]To see life from a different angle, wrestle with a different angel [01:41.380]Wouldn't lose your wings and fall from heaven like a cliffhanger [01:44.270]Everything is different now, nothing is the same [01:46.510]And nowadays I swear it feels like you don't know my name [01:49.370]But I look at the mirror and I see you every day [01:52.010]I'm you in every way, every hue and every shade [01:54.820]And maybe you should know, it's the last thing that I wanted [01:57.560]Cuz what I hate about you makes me feel like I'm haunted [02:00.210]And I don't wanna spend the rest of my time on the run and- [02:02.860]So I'm just gonna confront it, yeah I'm just gonna confront it [02:05.660]And tell you I love that you for everything you made me [02:08.970]And that you need to hear this even if it makes you angry [02:11.160]God lives inside you, you've already found him [02:13.850]The Devil lives in memories and you just let him hound you [02:16.560]And I despise your church for every ******* thing taught youthey [02:19.500]It's just a ******* stain that I wish I could wipe off you [02:22.060]That I wish I could wipe off you [02:24.900]And I forgive you for doing everything that it cost you [02:28.870]Everything that it cost you [02:30.300]Fame is such a heavy price I wish it didn't cost you [02:33.240]Losing a part of me that would follow you to Hell [02:35.790]Follow you to hatred, or follow you to jail [02:38.430]Followed you to patterns that I could never get out of [02:40.880]Now I realize that I could never make it with that love [02:44.080]Now I realize that **** is the alternative outcome [02:46.610]Never wanted you to save me, I just wish I count some [02:49.360]I just wish that you grew up with someone you could count on [02:52.060]I just wish you knew that you could never make it without love [02:54.800]For your goddamn self, and that you never ever find it in anybody else [03:00.100]Cuz I would help you find you [03:03.090]And if I saw it killing you I swear I would revive you [03:07.010]And if that meant the end of me [03:08.750]I'd do it all for you so you could have your happy end and peace [03:12.620]Because, you are such a special thing [03:15.310]You're not just my mom, but you're the reason I exist [03:18.720]And the best life that you could've had for yourself [03:22.040]without making a mistake [03:23.470]Would have meant I woulda had a nicer childhood [03:25.510]And even though my childhood wasn't perfect and I still love you [03:28.710]I just want to know you that if I could go back do one thing for you [03:34.920]I would be person for one you [03:37.510]I would make sure, not just for my sake, but so that [03:38.640]you could've had a nicer life [03:39.150]And a nicer childhood, that you know [03:41.430]You would not have made the mistakes that put us all [03:43.570]in this bad situation [03:44.890]And not have the stress to leave [03:46.630]But just so that you would have been happier and stronger [03:49.830]Even if I didn't exist, even it meant that I was never born [03:53.310]That's what I would have wanted for you [03:55.640]Yeah, and if that meant the end of me [03:57.740]I'd do it all for you so you could have your happy ending [04:00.330]Cuz I know that you hurting baby, I know that you tired too [04:03.140]I know you've been running from everything that's behind you [04:05.730]I know that you've been burying everything deep inside you [04:08.490]I can see it killing you, wish that I could revive you [04:11.580]And if that meant the end of me [04:14.030]I'd do it all for you so you could have your happy ending [04:18.060]And if that meant the end of me [04:19.590]I'd do it all for you so you could have your happy ending [04:23.910]And if that meant the end of me [04:25.080]I'd do it all for you so you could have your happy ending [04:28.940]I don't know [04:32.550]Maybe I would write you a happy ending [04:35.040]I would rearrange the pieces to your sad beginning [04:37.630]I would put you far away from the decaying roots that bore you [04:42.460]And let you experience all the ways that happiness [04:45.780]could bloom before you [04:47.910]Or maybe I'm nave, [04:49.940]Maybe I'm just a kid who thought that if she could plant a seed [04:53.760]It would somehow grow inside you [04:55.590]And that I could hide you from the rain [04:57.420]So that it could be easier for happiness to find you [05:01.750]Or still a maybe kid I'm who's caught in a dream [05:05.150]I'm the heir to the throne of a princess [05:07.240]who's still trying to be queen [05:10.340]Or maybe we're all just caught in the a massacrewinds of [05:14.210]The blackened leaves of dying, black dahlias