Up In Smoke-Neck Deep

[00:00.00]Stare at the wall till my eyes fall out my head [00:12.49]"Get out of bed" she said [00:14.13]So self destructive [00:16.07]Up in smoke, all came to nothing [00:18.87]Being broke and lonely doesn't make much sense [00:22.44]I wish you'd see my point of view [00:25.74]You're so uptight, loosen your screws [00:29.37]Try to find the words that you expect me to say [00:31.51]I know I let you down again [00:33.40]I get it [00:34.39]I see that look in your eye [00:37.03]I just hoped you could see [00:38.03]Swear to God that I tried [00:39.62]I just thought that for once I could do something right, but I can't [00:42.71]And I'm sorry [00:44.91]Heard you call [00:45.85]Did you want me? [00:51.08]I had it all but inside I was drowning [00:54.91]Now I can feel the pressure weighing down on me [01:00.43]I can't live up to all your standards [01:03.02]Can we learn to disagree? [01:06.60]Building back the trust you lost in me again [01:11.08]You're so upset and stressed [01:12.72]So disappointed [01:14.32]Dig up the past [01:15.31]Leave me with haunting situations I thought we agreed to let stay dead [01:21.58]I know I **** up every time [01:24.12]I fall apart, you fall in line [01:28.10]I bit my tongue and my mouth filled up with blood [01:30.54]I tried my hardest but still it wasn't enough [01:33.08]A desperate longing from trust [01:35.07]I get so close but I crush it again [01:36.36]My integrity's spent [01:37.71]I just hope that you know I'll be there 'till the end [01:40.39]When you're gone, I'll be broken [01:42.73]Let it out [01:44.28]Cut me open [01:47.61]Bury my head in my hands [01:49.80]How will I ever redeem myself? [02:13.70]Pressure weighing down on me [02:17.88]I can't live up to all your standards [02:20.66]Can we learn to disagree? [02:23.85]Pressure weighing down on me [02:28.88]When I can't give you all the answers you expect the worst of me [02:34.65]Stare at the wall till my eyes fall out my head [02:38.99]"Get out of bed" she said [02:40.98]So self destructive [02:42.92]Up in smoke, all came to nothing