Untitled.als-Mapps

[00:01.35]“He just was in so much pain
“他历经蹉跎 [00:03.21]That he, you know,
他 你知晓 [00:04.57]took it out on his mom
离母 [00:06.02]And took it out on his dad
离父 [00:08.06]And took it out on his siblings
无姊无兄 [00:11.02]But it’s almost like he didn’t—
一无所有 [00:12.90]he didn’t feel worthy
无望 [00:14.03]because he was rejected
无助 [00:17.90]And I don’t know
我不知道 [00:18.84]how anybody feels with
孤独何感 [00:20.06]having your whole family reject you”
家人反对” [00:25.05]“He was searching for
“他只是寻觅 [00:26.52] whatever made him feel like
一切 [00:29.06] he wasn’t alone
让他不孤独的 [00:30.82]And that he wasn’t so different”
让他不离群的东西” [00:33.34]“Well I know that
“我知道 [00:34.63]some people will say that
人们背议 [00:36.82] I treated him maternally,
我待他如子 [00:38.87]took care of him
关心备至 [00:40.49]But I like to think that
但我觉得 [00:41.24] it was more I was trying to
我试图养育他 [00:42.11]nurture him rather than take care of him
而非照顾他 [00:44.28]Trying to nurture
试着支持他 [00:45.38] who he was and get him to
帮他寻找自我 [00:47.41]let him do his art,
尊重他的艺术 [00:48.01] let him do his music
尊重他的音乐 [00:49.24]And encourage him
鼓励他的心灵 [00:49.99]to get better at it
让他充满力量 [00:50.71] as opposed to trying to stifle him
而非压抑他的天性 [00:52.51]But also not
但 [00:53.43] trying to be the mom,
也要待他亲切 [00:54.41] but trying to be a nurturing
尽力抚育 [00:55.65] girlfriend—or friend”
成为他的朋友” [00:59.18]“So who would support him?”
“谁在支持他？” [01:00.61]“Me”
“我” [01:02.87]“And what would he do all day
“他一天都在做什么 [01:05.01] while you were at work?”
当你工作的时候？” [01:06.56]“It was kind of funny
“有点有趣 [01:07.68]cause sometimes he would just sit there
因为他只是待着 [01:09.06]and watch TV for four hours
看数小时电视 [01:09.79]And you’d think
你想啊 [01:10.88] he wasn’t creating
他不会创作 [01:12.41]But he’d be playing guitar
但他爱吉他 [01:13.48] while he was doing that
当他如此 [01:14.26] or think of stuff later and then,
或时而思考这些事情的时候， [01:15.25]you know,
你知道， [01:15.76]and you go out for a few hours
你在外多时 [01:16.49] and you come back
当回来时 [01:17.56]and there’s a painting on the wall
墙上有着涂鸦 [01:18.64] or there’s a big comic strip—
搞笑线条— [01:19.49]or whatever,
无论无何， [01:20.02]he wrote a song,
他写了歌， [01:20.74]you know, recorded it.”
你知道，我录了下来.” [01:54.91]“He hated being humiliated.
“他觉得自己备受羞辱. [01:56.13]He hated it.
他讨厌这样. [01:58.16]And if he ever thought
如果他不乱想 [01:59.30] he was humiliated,
不会这样， [02:01.16]then you’d see the rage come out.
你会看到他发火 [02:03.95] And he was very careful about
他也小心 [02:05.33] and stubborn about
固执认为 [02:07.84] how the way the artwork was presented
表现的艺术 [02:09.89] because he didn’t want to be humiliated.”
不想自我蒙羞." [02:13.20] [02:13.62]“He’s home.
“他在家 [02:15.57]And he comes downstairs in his little
下楼时 [02:17.64]whitey tighties.
仅有内裤. [02:18.12]No shirt. Barefoot.
赤身裸脚 [02:18.81]Up and in his undies.
不整洁 [02:20.62]And uh—hairy dong coming out.
发不正 [02:21.42]That’s another thing
无他物 [02:25.41]I got sick of looking out.
我看着不适 [02:27.19] And he’s standing there with this tape
他就这样拿着磁带站着 [02:28.37] in his hand and I go,
我我问他： [02:29.42]‘What’s that?’
‘这是什么？’ [02:29.84]And he goes,
他回答， [02:30.77]‘It’s the master cut to my new album.
‘这是我的新专辑 [02:31.89]Can I put it on the stereo?’
我能放给你听吗？’ [02:34.33]And I go,
我说：`当然， [02:35.44]‘ Yeah! Turn it up. Up, up, up.’
放大声点！' [02:36.37]Cause I listen to music really loud.
声漫耳蜗 [02:37.18]And I look at him and I go,
看着他， [02:40.68]‘Oh my god. Oh my god.’
‘上帝 上帝’ [02:42.63] And I almost start crying.”
我近乎哭泣.” [02:44.88] [03:51.05]“It just, every week it got worst.
"就像，每周如此. [03:55.34]And sometimes he would come home,
有时他会回来 [03:57.31] I think to hide.
我想藏起来 [03:59.89] And it was really bad.
真的糟糕 [04:01.48] He started getting sores and
他的身体变得疼痛 [04:02.50]losing weight and nodding out.
日渐消瘦 [04:06.48] I was pretty sure he knew I knew.
我深信他知道我了解 [04:11.77]That I decided one time to
我第一时间 [04:12.79]just confront him.
仅仅是安慰他 [04:16.41]And I went up to his bedroom.
我去了他的房间 [04:18.92]He’s sitting on the side of the bed.
他只是坐在床头 [04:20.98]And he was crying
他在哭泣 [04:22.73]because I had just arrived.
我才来 [04:25.49]And he knew
他知道 [04:26.97] it was breaking my heart.
我的心碎了 [04:28.90]That I—and I talked to him about it.
我与他促膝长谈 [04:32.37]And he burst into tears.
他泪如雨下 [04:33.54] And he was just ashamed."
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