belmont blues-RUSSELL!

[00:23.25]Maybe things would be way different
一切都可能会变得完全不同 [00:26.13]If I ain't drop out
假设我没有离开 [00:29.30]Maybe I would've been normal, just like you
我们还可以像之前那样无忧无虑 [00:34.91]Now it's all this paranoia when I hop out
而如今我因为感情出局而彻底偏执 [00:40.53]Cause everybody wanna catch me
那都是因为他们想控制住我 [00:43.84]Slippin' 'juana show that action
让我按着他们那一套来走 [00:46.61]But baby, I don't know
宝贝我不清楚 [00:49.76]Is this for sure
这些都已经无法挽救了吗 [00:52.63]I drink, I smoke, but can't escape
我依赖上了酒精和叶子，但就是逃避不了你 [00:56.28]If you ask me what I think, I say
你要问我怎么想，我会明明白白告诉你 [00:59.14]Yeah, this shit gets to me
对，我已经受不了了 [01:01.91]Why do they threaten me?
为什么所有人都在针对我 [01:04.65]Is this shit meant for me?
他们到底想对我怎么样 [01:07.59]Is this shit meant for me?
他们到底还想要我干嘛 [01:10.78]I'm ****ed up mentally
我已经快要疯掉了 [01:13.74]Please send some help for me
请你务必帮帮我好吗 [01:16.70]Is this shit meant for me?
我一点办法也没有了 [01:19.56]Is this shit meant for me?
简直无计可施 [01:21.94]But shit , I gave it all to you
可我都已经把一切都给你了 [01:23.16]I watched everybody do well after they left me
眼看周围的朋友离开我后，都开始混的有模有样 [01:28.68]And they just used me
他们不过是想利用我而已 [01:30.47]Till they felt that they were good
直到他们觉得自个儿行了 [01:35.09]Some girls told me that they loved me
好像还有哪个女孩跟我示过爱 [01:38.09]But when I was all ****ed up
可当我一蹶不振的时候 [01:40.68]You ain't help me
你压根没帮我 [01:42.56]You ain't call me, shit got rough
没来过电话，糟糕透顶 [01:45.55]But baby, I don't know
宝贝，我真想不明白 [01:48.70]Is this for sure?
一切就该到此为止了？ [01:52.21]I drink, I smoke, but can't escape
我依赖上了酒精，但还是逃避不了你 [01:56.17]If you ask me what I think, I say
你要问我怎么想，我会明明白白告诉你 [01:59.19]Yeah, this shit gets to me
对，我已经受不了了 [02:01.94]Why do they threaten me?
为什么所有人都还在针对我 [02:04.71]Is this shit meant for me?
他们到底想对我怎么样 [02:07.48]Is this shit meant for me?
他们到底还想要我干嘛 [02:10.75]I'm ****ed up mentally
我已经快要疯掉了 [02:13.67]Please send some help for me
请你务必帮帮我好吗 [02:16.76]Is this shit meant for me?
我一点办法也没有了 [02:19.57]Is this shit meant for me?
简直无计可施 [02:21.91]This shit , I gave it up for good
算了，我想我还是放弃为好 [02:24.12]I hear excuses way more than
我从很多女人身上听到过无数个借口 [02:25.71]I hear "I love you"s
情话倒没听过几句 [02:26.91]I hear more **** yous than
从她们嘴里吐出的抱怨和迁怒 [02:28.40]"Nobody is above you"s
远远多过于对我的称赞 [02:29.82]Every girl I tried to talk to
我还得一一告诉她们说 [02:31.10]Like some normal, basic idiot
你们就是些如出一辙的白痴 [02:32.86]And I just gotta act like
然后我只要装得就像 [02:34.16]I ain't really pissed, but maybe I am
我完全不介意，就当开玩笑 [02:36.12]Maybe I'm pissed that I ain't on yet
说不定我反而会因为放不开而生气 [02:38.18]And everybody in my city loves to taunt me
顺便一提，这座城市的人都很乐意奚落我 [02:41.03]Like I won't beat somebody's ****ing ass
搞得我好像没有脾气去狠狠爆他们一顿似的 [02:43.08]For throwing dirt on my name
但这样只会给我的名声搞掉价 [02:44.43]I don't ever get no perks from my fame
尽管我从没打算拿它去捞任何好处 [02:46.69]Cause ever person always sees me
就因为总有些人老盯着我 [02:48.38]As a meal ticket, like **** all this shit
都想靠我去赚的盆满钵满，见鬼去吧 [02:50.46]I'm really ****ing mad that money exists
我真得给钱不钱的问题逼疯掉了 [02:52.69]I'm really mad that everybody chose the clout
同样无法忍受每个人都变得趋炎附势 [02:55.03]And these niggas instead of helping me out
而这些白眼狼却从没回头拉过我一把 [02:56.99]Like, do I really gotta tell you out loud
难道这些还要我大声提醒你们吗 [02:59.38]I saw hell in 2015
2015是个不愉快的一年 [03:00.94]And since then shit ain't changed
自那之后我感觉很多问题都没能有所好转 [03:02.55]I got bigger, but people treat me the same
我是变强了，但有些人习惯了狗眼看人低 [03:04.68]Waiting in line for all these clubs
去个会所耍居然还要我挤后面排队 [03:06.34]That should pay me and people think that
是个人都知道他们得自掏腰包请老子沾光 [03:07.90]I'm crazy, but I got self-worth
我疯了对吗，但我已经找到了自我价值 [03:09.67]People just take it
你们只消点头即可 [03:10.67]Never understood why people gotta
真的有些人啊，我一直理解不了 [03:12.68]Act like heart and love ain't important
她们一定得摆出一副看淡感情、人间清醒的样子 [03:14.51]Why these girls I meet just hurt me and bore me
为什么我遇到的这些女人只会伤害我，惹人生厌 [03:16.78]All I asked for was a house for my mama
当我拼尽所有只求能给老妈换套新房子的时候 [03:18.89]But then she died
她却不在了 [03:19.76]All you said was that
你只是嘴巴上说着 [03:20.82]I'd make it here easy, but **** you lied
“想让我们都能过得更好”，但你还是撒了谎 [03:23.10]****, you lied
坏女人，你食言了 [03:27.00]After that summer
记得那个夏天之后 [03:28.07]I felt like I was running away from this person
我总感觉自己在奋力逃避某个人 [03:30.27]I'd been for so long
不断地持续着持续着 [03:31.43]And hid it behind all these foolish vices
还用种种荒谬的恶习去极力掩饰自己 [03:33.73]I came home one night incredibly
有天晚上我回到家 [03:35.44]Under the influence and called you
借着酒劲，拨通了你的电话 [03:36.57]Shaking, paranoid, blacking out
不断地颤抖，大脑完全混乱，随后昏厥了过去 [03:38.96]And hearing you call my name over
只记得最后听到了你叫着我的名字 [03:40.29]And over again, panicking
一遍又一遍，声音很无措 [03:42.30]Russell, Russell, Russell
叫着Russell，Russell，Russell [03:47.18]"Russell? Russell? Wake up"
“Russell，Russell，醒醒……”