Anxious-Vin Jay

[00:15.020] (I don't know how much more of this I can take
我不知道自己还能承受多少 [00:18.922] My thoughts controlling me
我的想法控制着我 [00:20.419] My fears controlling me
我的恐惧左右着我 [00:22.691] I'm anxious)
我很焦虑 [00:23.541] [00:24.115] I've been feeling anxious
我一直在忍受焦虑 [00:26.110] Feeling like a slave to my mind, I just wanna be free
我感觉自己就像我那些杂乱思想的奴隶，我只想重获自由 [00:30.058] I've been feeling anxious
我一直在忍受焦虑 [00:32.221] And when I look around there ain't nobody feeling like me
当我环顾四周，我发现并非没有人有如我一般的感受 [00:36.144] I've been feeling anxious
我一直在经受焦虑 [00:38.440] Hoping that I make it through the pain, got me begging, God, please
希望我渡过难关克服痛苦，上帝啊，请听听我的祈求吧 [00:42.209] I've been feeling anxious
我一直在经受焦虑 [00:44.500] Feeling like a slave to my mind, I just wanna be free
我感觉自己就像我那些杂乱思想的奴隶，我只想重获自由 [00:48.192] [00:49.711] I'm waking up in a panic ripping my chest tight
我在恐慌中惊醒，恐惧彻底地撕扯着我的胸口 [00:52.365] Can't wait till I can see the end of all these stress nights
我无法忍受直到熬过这些充斥着压力的夜夜夜夜 [00:55.550] But I'm a soldier, so, I'mma put my best fight
但我是个战士，所以，我要全力以赴应对挑战 [00:58.507] And pray to God that I won't have to suffer in my next life
并且我向上帝祈祷我的下一段旅程将不再受苦 [01:01.883] Whenever I'm out in public I start to panic
每当我置身于人群之中，我就开始恐慌 [01:04.627] I'm always on the edge like something is gonna happen
我总行走在焦虑边缘就像有什么事情将会发生 [01:07.694] The worst case possible is what my mind imagines
最坏的可能情况都只存于我脑海的想象之中 [01:10.698] And this shit could get triggered by the slightest interaction
与外界最轻微的互动都能触发这些烂想法 [01:13.890] It's like it always makes you focus on your biggest fears
这种感觉就像它让你总是聚焦于你最大的恐惧 [01:17.202] And it reminds you that you'll never make them disappear
并且它还在不断提醒你你永远都无法让它们消失 [01:20.191] And when your mind is crystal clear
当你的思想无比清晰时 [01:22.041] This shit will interfere like don't you ever try to be driven or even switching gears
这些烂想法也会来掺一脚，就像你永远无法被其他因素驱动或者换个角度看生活 [01:26.467] I'm going ballistic, I'm broken, no one can fix it
我已经如失控的子弹，我的内心支离破碎，没有人能修复我的内心 [01:29.128] And I don't want Physicians just tryna feed me prescriptions
我不需要医师来给我开偏方 [01:31.885] The pills I've been given gon beat me into submission
他开的那些药片只会让我服从 [01:35.085] Cause the chemical imbalance controlling my whole existence
导致的化学失衡正在控制我的整个存在 [01:37.900] [01:38.210] I've been feeling anxious
我一直都在忍受焦虑 [01:39.979] Feeling like a slave to my mind, I just wanna be free
我感觉自己就像我那些杂乱思想的奴隶，我只想重获自由 [01:43.631] I've been feeling anxious
我一直都在忍受焦虑 [01:46.184] And when I look around there ain't nobody feeling like me
当我环顾四周我发现也不是没有人如我一般痛苦 [01:50.019] I've been feeling anxious
我一直在忍受焦虑 [01:52.268] Hoping that I make it through the pain, got me begging, God, please
希望我渡过难关克服痛苦，上帝啊，请听听我的祈求吧 [01:56.191] I've been feeling anxious
我一直在忍受焦虑 [01:58.286] Feeling like a slave to my mind, I just wanna be free
我感觉自己就像我那些杂乱思想的奴隶，我只想重获自由 [02:01.088] [02:02.436] Sometimes I leave a room in the middle of conversation
有时我会在谈话中途离开房间 [02:06.269] All because I'm anxious and feels like my heart's racing
这一切只是因为我极度焦虑，我感到自己的心跳在加速 [02:08.937] It feels like, I've lost all controls of this situation
这种感觉就像，我失去了对周围一切的控制 [02:11.995] Guess it's time to hit the doctor for some stronger medication
我想是时候请医生给我一些强效药了 [02:15.263] But now, I'm just sedated, I'm walking around like a zombie
但现在，我被镇定剂镇住了，就像行尸走肉一样四处游荡 [02:18.251] A mother****ing shell of myself for carbon copy
我觉得自己灵魂出窍已经沦为副本 [02:21.493] Don't want this shit inside me there's poison all in my body
我不想让这些垃圾在我内心存在，它们都是我身体里的毒药 [02:24.348] All my days begin to blend and my memories getting spotty
所有的时光开始融合，我的记忆变得参差不齐 [02:27.585] So, I'm just hoping that one day I'll live in peace
所以，我只希望有一天我能生活于平静之中 [02:30.759] Was born a dreamer but I swear this shit is bittersweet
我生来就是一个梦想家，但我发誓这条路苦乐参半 [02:34.143] I'm nice at rapping but it's time to pick a different dream
我很擅长说唱，但是否该去选择一个不同的梦想呢 [02:36.922] Can't get up on the stage, I swear that thought alone just cripples me
不能站在舞台上，我发誓，光是这个想法就会让我崩溃 [02:40.033] And I'm not looking for sympathy or no love
我不是在寻找同情或爱 [02:42.987] I just hate that I'm anxious and feel like I'm giving up
我讨厌焦虑，我痛恨它让我觉得自己快要放弃 [02:45.784] When the only cure is self isolation and taking drugs
当唯一的治疗方法是自我隔离和服药 [02:48.919] If you knew what it was like I bet you prolly wouldn't judge
如果你知道那是什么感觉，我打赌你不会妄加评判的 [02:51.818] [02:52.049] I've been feeling anxious
我一直都感到焦虑 [02:53.660] Feeling like a slave to my mind, I just wanna be free
我感觉自己就像我那些杂乱思想的奴隶，我只想重获自由 [02:57.681] I've been feeling anxious
我一直都在忍受焦虑 [02:59.982] And when I look around there ain't nobody feeling like me
当我环顾四周我发现也不是没有人如我一般痛苦 [03:03.835] I've been feeling anxious
我一直都在忍受焦虑 [03:06.106] Hoping that I make it through the pain, got me begging, God, please
希望我渡过难关克服痛苦，上帝啊，请听听我的祈求吧 [03:09.902] I've been feeling anxious
我一直都在忍受焦虑 [03:11.998] Feeling like a slave to my mind, I just wanna be free
我感觉自己就像那些杂乱思想的奴隶，我只想重获自由