Sufferings First-Angel Haze/Sara Tavares

[00:33.49]I'm staring' at the view from the height of my past pain [00:36.05]Ironic, I'm trying come in first if it's the last thing [00:38.86]They trying throw me off, but I won't let 'em pass me [00:41.74]They kill me with the hating, but I ain't in the casket [00:44.62]I gotta stay on top, gotta ****ing overcome **** [00:47.42]I had to learn to beat it like I just got a drum kit [00:50.30]Now my motto 'keep faith, stay strong [00:52.74]Be prosperous [00:53.74]Stay positive and **** anyone that say opposite' [00:56.61]'Cause everybody don't wanna see you win [00:58.61]In the end, your biggest enemies may be your friend [01:01.61]Keep losing my balance; [01:02.74]That's the prize of a winner [01:04.24]So, I'm trying find god in the eyes of a sinner [01:07.24]'Cause me, I'm like the victim through the eyes of a killer; [01:09.86]Gun's aimed at her worth and the pride that's within her [01:12.74]I'm the uprise in the lives of the demise and devastation [01:16.43]The little piece of heaven left in satan, forreal [01:19.55]So what if it hurts? [01:20.36]The struggle is first [01:21.11]To live is to die, we all suffer the curse [01:23.99]And love is the cure until we're suffering worse [01:26.68]Pleasure is pain; the suffering's first [01:28.69] [01:41.43]Pushed 'em out of my life, my friends say that I changed [01:43.86]But, how the **** you make a difference and still stay the same? [01:47.77]They don't carry the weight; they can't handle the pressure [01:49.58]So they can see me evolve, but they can't capture my essence [01:52.33]My life is insane, and I don't get enough credit [01:54.90]But the picture ain't realistic like a Photoshop edit [01:58.06]How could you even be mad that I would wanna enhance that? [02:00.87]Just to have the option, like I hit the 'advanced' tab [02:04.24]So, **** 'em all; [02:05.12]They'd rather see me fail [02:06.49]I hit the mainstream and my ship gon' sail [02:09.30]And ****** gon' hate, and some gon' applaud me [02:12.31]But I remain a problem that nobody's resolving [02:14.99]I got this ache in my soul and it's distant now [02:18.18]'cause I'm hotter than the flames on a Piston now [02:21.06]I keep losing my balance, that's what trips me out [02:23.93]I keep my emotions inside 'til I'm flipping out [02:26.68]But I won't trip [02:28.24]I stand tall [02:29.37]Just keep my head [02:30.87]And hold on [02:32.12]I said, I won't trip [02:33.62]I stand tall [02:34.99]Just keep my head [02:36.43]And hold on [02:37.87]So what if it hurts? [02:38.93]The struggle is first [02:40.12]To live is to die, we all suffer the curse [02:43.05]And love is the cure until we're suffering worse [02:46.43]Pleasure is pain; the suffering's first [02:48.06] [03:00.38]Sometimes I feel like I'm bound to be a sell-out [03:02.75]So I spit fire to try to let this hell out [03:04.94]To try to let myself out [03:06.44]This cage I trapped myself in [03:07.75]But I won't let myself in [03:09.13]I feel like if I lose sight of me, I won't let myself win [03:12.27]And I won't let myself end, I be damned if I do [03:14.90]I enjoy being myself; I be damned if I'm you [03:17.08]See, I give 'em what they need and that's that real **** [03:20.45]And I do it with my heart so they can feel this [03:23.14]That's why the words in my songs reach broken bones [03:25.89]Make 'em strong, show 'em they got more to focus on [03:29.05]And music is the only thing I put my hope in [03:31.57]Use words to capture my mute emotions [03:33.38]I'm like an umbrella top, how I'm hit with the rain [03:37.19]But I walk when it hurts like a ligament's sprain [03:39.19]And my thoughts like a frame to the picture I paint; [03:42.88]I get high off the green like the top of terrain [03:45.81]They can't extinguish the flame from my mouth when I speak [03:48.50]I got beauty and peace, like a tropical beach [03:50.57]And I got me some dreams that I won't stop 'til I reach [03:53.75]And Dr. King's speech in the mouth of a freak [03:56.95]So what if it hurts? [03:58.00]The struggle is first [03:59.19]To live is to die, we all suffer the curse [04:02.00]And love is the cure until we're suffering worse [04:04.88]Pleasure is pain; the suffering's first