Crow, Pt. 2-Mount Eerie

[00:34.78]A crow that's being dreamed [00:36.91]By a child who's being carried through the forest [00:41.23]Sleeping wondering in her twilight half awareness [00:45.49]Where her mother went [00:47.11]I know that you died [00:51.84]But in this child's crow dream you survive [00:57.79]Beneath layers of magical symbolic wild animals [01:03.11]Inhabiting the edges of our fogged over consciousness's [01:09.17]Grasping for something to hold [01:12.84]Something old [01:15.77]Like a name cut into a stone [01:20.24]Or a bird that will make eye contact [01:32.56]That's where you live now [01:37.34]Or at least that's where I hold you [01:43.47]And we're still here without you [01:49.00]Sleeping and the sun's coming up [01:54.61]In the ruins of our household we wake up again [01:59.90]Coming back into this [02:05.43]Every day that comes the echo of you living here gets quieter [02:11.87]Obscured by the loud wind of us now [02:17.85]Wailing and moaning for you [02:23.91]But also living talking about school [02:28.38]Making food just surviving and still containing love [02:33.89]Waking up again the baby that you knew is now a kid [02:40.34]And when she looks at me with your eyes the shape of almonds [02:46.51]I am stirred inside and reemerge [02:50.92]I go downstairs and turn on CBC and make some coffee [02:56.16]And boil two eggs and make two pieces of bread into toast [03:01.36]And open the window and give the child some clothes [03:05.59]And get us sitting at the table [03:08.36]Where your chair still sits across from me watching [03:13.94]I stand up to put on music [03:18.40]Our daughter sees and asks for mama's record [03:23.61]And she's staring at the speaker with this look of recognition [03:29.19]Putting it together that it's you singing [03:34.33]I'm sobbing and eating eggs again [03:39.95]You're a quiet echo on loud wind [03:45.35]But when I'm trying to I see you everywhere [03:49.41]In plants and birds and in our daughter [03:52.30]In the sun going down and coming up and in whatever [03:58.03]And the myths that used to get told around the fire [04:03.23]Where a seal's head pokes up through from underwater [04:08.57]Crossing a threshold between two worlds yours and mine [04:14.44]We were skeletally intertwined once [04:18.66]But now I notice ravens instead [04:24.84]I don't see you anywhere [05:38.43]If you still hang in the branches [05:51.94]Like burnt wood I will go out beneath [06:03.19]With arms reached and run my fingers through the air [06:14.38]Where you breathed touching your last breath [06:27.66]Reaching through to the world of the gone with my hand empty