Fears We Create (Ft. Chase Huglin)-Hotel Books/Chase Huglin

[00:02.53]"I know we haven't talked in a while [00:06.19]I know I ignored your calls [00:10.43]But, I miss you tonight." [00:13.98]The Bible used to know my name [00:18.65]With Heaven's weeping holy tears [00:23.28]Love that tastes like sweet champagne [00:27.89]I'm chasing after hollow fears [00:31.91] [00:33.42]I've been staring at walls and [00:34.75]I've been praying to the ceiling fan [00:36.85]That moves the air in the room in a way that no human can [00:40.71]I've been ignoring my calls [00:42.32]And I've been hoping for another man to sweep her off her feet [00:45.23]So she's happy without my hands [00:48.14]'Cause I'm so ready to be loved [00:49.80]But I can only pour out once I'm full [00:51.51]I'm ready to turn back to dust [00:53.18]But I cannot ignore the fact that I always play the fool [00:57.30]I'm sure I'm fine, I just don't wanna check or let this set [01:00.51]A while longer feels stronger than forget [01:02.56]That my silence is as deep as my lack of sleep [01:05.50]My sense of peace and my lasting defeat [01:08.01]Darling, I know this hurts [01:09.41]But promise me someday you'll be happy [01:11.27]So this pain means something [01:12.87] [01:14.12]The Bible used to know my name [01:19.14]With Heaven's weeping holy tears [01:23.55]Love that tastes like sweet champagne [01:28.40]I'm chasing after hollow fears [01:33.66]The Bible used to know my name [01:38.73]With Heaven's weeping holy tears [01:43.54]Love's a loss and love's a gain [01:48.71]Hoping I feel at home, my dear [01:52.93] [01:53.59]The night before our first interaction was an embrace [01:56.24]Of exploration of nothing or everything [01:58.55]Depending on how you choose to perceive dreaming [02:01.11]I spent an eternity in four seconds focusing on the thought [02:05.12]That maybe love was just hormones, chemical abnormalities [02:08.08]Or social cravings [02:09.94]But then I met myself for the first time [02:11.59]When I made a lifelong promise that I knew I could keep [02:14.66]Because prior to my suicide [02:16.40]I thought lifelong promises were always selfish [02:18.92]Or at least seeded in some sort of embellished lie [02:21.87]We choose to believe [02:23.59]But I've been told enough times that I'm going insane [02:26.40]Just still want to breathe [02:28.91] [02:32.82]The Bible used to know my name [02:39.13]With Heaven's weeping holy tears [02:43.90]Love that tastes like sweet champagne [02:48.71]I'm chasing after hollow fears [02:53.73]The Bible used to know my name [02:58.50]With Heaven's weeping holy tears [03:03.98]Love's a loss and love's a gain [03:07.95]Hoping I feel at home, my dear [03:13.20] [03:14.51]"I miss you so much. And I need you in my life. [03:18.14]So please. Please stay. [03:22.65]You're the best thing that's ever happened to me [03:25.65]After everything that's happened."