I'm Almost Happy Here-Hotel Books

[00:01.27]I think I'm almost happy here [00:03.18]But I will never regret venturing despite fear [00:05.93]Because everyone wanted me to see that we could not thrive [00:10.21]So if this is reality [00:12.92]Then I guess I don't regret the nights I thought that I had died [00:16.71]'Cause sometimes I feel like nothing, and nothing ever changes [00:19.78]When changes consume me through these changing stages [00:22.65]Everything we could have done differently is now just a memory [00:26.66]And the love I hoped for is hanging on a rope [00:29.93]And it's funny how artistic we become when our hearts are broken [00:33.27]Through this constant collapse, the thought of relapse [00:36.62] [00:37.47]I guess it's safe to throw our bones back in the sea [00:45.37]I guess it's safe to throw our bones back in the sea [00:52.28]With this saltwater for blood and fear of falling in love [00:56.14]I'm almost happy here, but I'm still moving [00:59.04]I just want us to run wild, young beauty [01:03.29]Because I always thought I would be okay [01:05.66]And some days, I still feel the same [01:07.66]But every day the same way I feel afraid to embrace grace [01:11.52]'Cause I know I don't deserve it [01:13.97]And I know that I can't earn this [01:16.20]And I know that I can hurt this heart that I have grown within [01:20.72]But it's a given to even someone as sick as me [01:25.19]Now I can breathe seeing that I'm not living in apathy [01:27.90] [01:32.47]So I guess we'll throw our bones back into the sea [01:39.40]I guess it's safe to throw our bones back into the sea [01:44.58]Come with me and I hope I stay alive [01:48.19]Because ghosts can't love through this broke love [01:51.49]And turn to above in a quick dash [01:53.19]Feel the impact on this car crash [01:55.71]And pray to God I can be forgiven [01:57.56]And have my friends back [01:59.77] [02:01.88]Where we sleep is where we dream, and I haven't slept for days [02:04.65]REM cycles are a memory of when I was sitting in a dorm room [02:08.44]Thinking of how much greener the grass would be [02:10.30]If I became a touring act someday [02:11.96]But now I'm dreaming or sinking [02:13.82]Most nights they feel the same, since I can lose one friend [02:16.78]Lose all friends, and still not keep those demons at bay [02:19.65]And I said all my friends are trees with the roots in the earth [02:23.01]What hurts is that the branches in a community [02:25.16]We've labeled our hearts into a collective scene [02:27.61]Into a collective faithless dream [02:29.97]Of empty courage and empty hearts [02:31.92] [02:32.07]Hollow light, hollow lovers, always falling apart [02:33.83]So I'll love life and let go [02:36.19]And try my best to understand there's nothing new to know [02:39.30]Though I didn't say it's true, I still feel the same [02:42.09]Like I died with you, and I feel the strain [02:44.90]Taking two steps back on these wooden floorboards [02:47.70]I'll beg for more [02:49.00]And pray this isn't just a retrospective moment [02:51.20]Not just a soul begging for catharsis [02:53.66]But rather the start of a new me and a real movement [02:56.66]God forgive me