TONYA-BROCKHAMPTON

[00:00.000] 作词 : Dominique Simpson/Ian Simpson/Ciarán McDonald/Romil Hemnani/Russell Boring/Jabari Manwarring/William Wood [00:01.000] 作曲 : Dominique Simpson/Ian Simpson/Ciarán McDonald/Romil Hemnani/Russell Boring/Jabari Manwarring/William Wood [00:35.92]Mother, I am sorry, I never pick up
对不起妈妈，我从没接你的电话 [00:44.00]Mmm-mhm
嗯。。 [00:45.90]Because I'm afraid to disappoint
我只是怕让你失望 [00:52.10]Ooh, oh, no
对不起 [00:56.10]Oh, no
我不是不想你 [01:00.05]And I've been feelin' like I don't matter how I used to
过去的事情我似乎已不再在意 [01:06.77]And I've been feelin' like I don't matter how I used to
不再在意了 [01:11.40]We were sat outside on the hardwood floor
我们曾坐在庭院的木地板上 [01:14.79]With our feet in dirt, and our hearts in awe
脚底沾满泥巴，怀着敬畏之心 [01:17.82]I be losin' sleep thinkin' 'bout missed calls
我为那些错过的来电而失眠 [01:20.70]And I see the names circling our thoughts
那些名字一直在我脑海里浮现 [01:23.63]And I think about if we lose it all
我在想 我是否失去了他们 [01:26.49]And I turn to **** that you never want
我沾上了你唾弃的东西 [01:29.50]Like the smoke, the drink, anything at all
尼古丁，酒精，所有烂东西 [01:32.67]And I'll say again, sorry I don't call
我要再次道歉我没有回电给你 [01:35.70]There's no money on my mind, but my money or my mind
我做这些不是为了钱 [01:38.59]What's the first to fall?
但对金钱的渴望也让我讨厌自己 [01:40.71]I never wanted this ****
我不想。。 [01:45.20]Yeah
哎 [01:48.06]And I've been feelin' like I don't matter how I used to
过去的事情我似乎已不再在意 [01:54.32]And I've been feelin' like I don't matter how I used to
不再在意了 [01:59.41]Sometimes it be so spot on it hurts
有时被瞄的太准 打的太疼 [02:02.70]Like when Auntie couldn't decide
就像阿姨没法决定 [02:04.20]Between going to work or church
去工作还是去礼拜 [02:05.60]I've been in my feelings on an island in the dirt
我像是陷入了孤岛上的泥沼 [02:08.58]I feel like brothers lie just so my feelings don't get hurt
我以为 听了兄弟的谎话会好受一点 [02:11.59]I said, I'll try vacation, and I'll try to run away
我试着给自己放假，我试着让自己逃离 [02:14.65]I deleted Facebook, I'll trade fame any day
我卸载了Facebook，我愿失去名声 回到过去 [02:17.59]For a quiet Texas place and a barbecue plate
有个安静的地方，可以烧烤的地方（brockhampton在德州生活过一段时间） [02:20.51]I'll switch my place if that's good for you, is that good for you?
如果你想跟我交换身份，那就换吧，可别后悔 [02:24.14]My ghost still haunt you, my life is I, Tonya
我的魂魄会缠着你，我的生活就像是《I,Tonya》（一位花样滑冰选手，她的经历被改编为电影于2017年上映） [02:27.11]A big eyed monster, only face to conquer
你会变成一只大眼怪，只能一直去战胜生活中的困难 [02:30.18]I hated songs about fame 'cause that stuff meant nothin'
我讨厌关于名利的歌 就没啥意义 [02:33.26]Until them headlines came, then first flight I'm stuckin'
然后这些歌就上了头条，我在飞机上惊得无法动弹 [02:35.90]And maybe it means nothing
也许毫无意义 [02:37.10]But I have to say I think about you often
但我还是要说我时常想起你 [02:41.34]And if you want no part with me
如果你想跟我干架(应为And if you want a war with me) [02:43.25]I'll walk away, I know that I have wronged you
我会屈服 因为我曾辜负你 [02:47.66]And maybe it means nothing
也许毫无意义 [02:49.09]But I have to say I think about you often
但我还是要说我时常想起你 [02:53.25]And if you want no part with me
如果你想跟我干架 [02:55.21]I'll walk away, I know that I have wronged you
我会屈服 因为我曾辜负你 [02:58.71]I took a plane to somewhere that I've never been
我飞往未知的地方 [03:01.71]Too many times without my sister and my brother
太多次旅程 家人都不在我的身边 [03:04.04]Dad or mother by my side but they're in spirit
但他们存在于我的灵魂之中 [03:06.44]I always hear it, I know they feel it
我总能听到他们的声音 我知道他们明白我想着他们 [03:10.48]My mom will always have these dreams that keep her up at night
我妈总是每晚担心我，难以入眠 [03:14.14]I smoke to keep them all away and make use of the time
我抽烟是为了让家人讨厌我 远离我，来利用好自己的时间 [03:16.93]I'm void of feelin'
我已经麻木了 [03:18.29]The reasons I'm so out of touch, now start revealin'
我如此孤独的原因，现在开始显现 [03:21.96]But I'm not ashamed, I'm not afraid of who I am
但我不会羞愧，我也不畏惧自己 [03:26.51]Or how I trust my mental, yeah, it's not perfect
即使我的精神不健全我也会相信它 [03:28.98]But I guess that's just the **** I'm into
我想这就是我热爱的生活 [03:30.82]I fantasize about a time when everything was simple
我幻想过简单的生活 [03:33.88]My shelter sheltered me from things I needed to commit to
我的家人们让我不做错事 [03:36.79]The way it stands to me
他们永远站在我这边 [03:38.25]A victim of Stockholm in my friendships and family
一个斯德哥尔摩患者的一边 [03:41.22]What's costin' you time? What's the reason that you whine?
是什么在浪费你的时间？是什么让你抱怨？ [03:44.58]What's in your wallet? Dead whites in mine
你的钱包里有什么？我的装有死去的白人 [03:47.49]So sour, in this light of lime
洒满了石灰，都还是臭得要死(指那些种族主义者) [03:50.60]Daddy said "study or get that cash"
他说：“给我学习，不然就只能当个小偷” [03:53.72]Mommy said "your career ain't gon' last"
她说：“你成不了事” [03:56.48]Loose change, call a cab, move out their pad
所以抓把零钱，叫辆出租，离开他们的阴影之下 [03:59.50]I just want a chance to move past my past
我只想抓住机会，逃离这残忍的过去 [04:02.46]Don't think too fast, private jets still crash
但也别想太远了，喷气机也会坠毁 [04:05.64]And I'll still fly coach, and I'll still hit a roach
至少我还能坐得起经济舱，我还打的死蟑螂 [04:08.52]And I'll still see roaches at the crib where my folks at
我还看见他们的烂房子里有蟑螂乱爬 [04:11.81]Touch your dreams 'fore you touch me and provoke a man
在你来惹毛我之前 先碰得到自己的梦想吧垃圾 [04:14.67](Somebody gonna have to tell the truth and I'm gonna tell it!)
总有人得出来说实话，我就来当那个人 [04:17.90]I will (I will)
我会的 [04:20.50]And I've been feelin' like I don't matter how I used to
我似乎快忘记了我的从前 [04:25.51]How I, how I
我的从前... [04:29.09]Can I tell you how, Can I tell you now
我能告诉你吗.. [04:39.93]How I, how I
我的从前...