Heather Nicole-Hopsin

[00:01.554]At night in my window [00:03.304]I see a silhouette [00:04.741]Crying heavy tears look how wet my pillow gets [00:07.406]Throughout my days [00:08.242]I don't smile [00:09.182]I just get upset [00:10.227]And since you left look at all the **** that it affects [00:13.309]I take a picture of your face and [00:15.060]I just hold it up [00:16.392]Kiss it, then reminisce on when it was both of us [00:19.291]It's hard for me to open up, [00:20.650]I'm always talking to myself [00:22.217]But to nobody else [00:23.471]Some say that church or maybe counseling could probably help [00:26.553]But they don't know about all of my idiotic lies [00:29.584]All the ****ing times [00:30.367]I left you traumatized [00:31.673]Swore up and down to you saying [00:33.162]I'm a try [00:34.495]And never did, [00:35.226]I try not to cry but [00:35.957]I feel bad [00:36.924]I didn't apologize [00:37.891]It's time [00:38.962]I cough it up and tell more, my soul is taken never sell yours [00:42.436]I did some **** [00:43.742]I probably coulda been in jail for [00:45.858]Bury me deep inside hells core [00:47.765]And don't let me out until you hear bells roar [00:50.011]She said, you never loved me [00:51.997]You just controlled me [00:53.433]If you **** around [00:54.609]I'm calling the police [00:56.202]But all I wanted to say was [00:58.240]I'm sorry [00:59.781]Oh how I wish that could tell you [01:03.203]You're gone, you're dead, you'll never know that [01:07.200]I was sorry [01:08.663]Just leave me alone, stay out my head, [01:11.484]I wish that [01:13.443]I could tell you [01:15.037]You're gone, you're dead, you'll never know that [01:18.851]I was sorry [01:20.470]Just leave me alone, stay out my head, [01:24.597]I wish that [01:25.042]I could tell you [01:26.191]It's hard to forget, my heart is a brick [01:27.837]I tell myself [01:28.803]Marcus, I thought that you were smarter than this [01:31.206]The mess I put you through was worse than pearl harbor and **** [01:33.845]I'd always harm you and flip, mentally scar you and trip [01:36.692]Sometimes [01:37.397]I'd argue and get, the nerve to call you a ***** [01:39.670]Then bruise your back against the dresser that [01:41.760]I tossed you against [01:43.197]My Juliet at the time [01:44.320]I never thought you was it [01:45.600]I do now but **** your gone, so [01:47.533]I just offer you this [01:48.630]A song to you, through it [01:50.197]I open the crack in my chest [01:51.582]And show the whole world [01:52.914]I've always had a lack of respect [01:54.429]For women who went to my life, [01:56.023]I look to vengeance as knife [01:57.303]Intentions to fight, if you thinking [01:58.844]I was senseless you right [02:00.411]Now every sentence [02:01.979]I write, I think twice on it so [02:03.311]I don't regret [02:04.121]Cause only stress lies in a simple mind of loneliness [02:06.785]I'm an unholy mess, put me in a hole to rest [02:09.711]Welcome to my life this is how painful my stories get [02:12.715]She said, you never loved me [02:14.962]You just controlled me [02:16.398]If you **** around [02:17.391]I'm calling the police [02:19.455]But all I wanted to say was [02:21.257]I'm sorry [02:23.112]Oh how I wish that could tell you [02:25.907]You're gone, you're dead, you'll never know that [02:29.851]I was sorry [02:31.549]Just leave me alone, stay out my head, [02:35.781]I wish that [02:36.199]I could tell you [02:38.263]You're gone, you're dead, you'll never know that [02:41.815]I was sorry [02:43.357]Just leave me alone, stay out my head, [02:47.562]I wish that [02:47.876]I could tell you [02:48.633]Now use this track as a lesson [02:49.574]All you guys out there who have some aggression [02:51.716]Towards your woman it don't have to get hectic [02:53.832]That crap is pathetic, now look at me [02:55.791]I have to regret it [02:56.888]I can't go near her or nothing, she'll probably have me arrested [03:00.258]The only thing [03:00.780]I could do is just make a track with a message [03:02.896]And hope she hears it so she could know [03:04.725]I was badly infected [03:05.770]I never meant to be that type of guy [03:07.468]But I realized that [03:08.931]I was, and because of it [03:10.184]I'm throwing my sinister life aside [03:11.830]I can cry at any moment just thinking about it [03:15.069]Sometimes [03:15.801]I hide it from the folks that [03:17.237]I'm hanging around with [03:18.152]I should apply for a new soul cause [03:19.876]I think it's invalid [03:21.025]Somebody told me when [03:22.331]I die I'll be safe but [03:23.559]I doubt it [03:24.160]The grudge she holds against me, it hurts me so severely [03:26.877]She won't come near me, [03:28.392]I thought that time was supposed to cure me [03:29.802]I'm so alone and weary, writing songs to heal me [03:33.068]I swear that [03:33.799]I'm sorry [03:34.295]Heather, I mean it so sincerely [03:36.020]She said, you never loved me [03:37.848]You just controlled me [03:39.259]If you **** around [03:40.434]I'm calling the police [03:41.688]But all I wanted to say was [03:44.196]I'm sorry [03:45.528]Oh how I wish that could tell you [03:47.827]You're gone, you're dead, you'll never know that [03:52.842]I was sorry [03:54.331]Just leave me alone, stay out my head, [03:58.406]I wish that [03:58.903]I could tell you [04:00.340]You're gone, you're dead, you'll never know that [04:03.892]I was sorry [04:06.165]Just leave me alone, stay out my head, [04:10.553]I wish that [04:10.815]I could tell you