Your House-Hopsin

[00:30.250]Man, I don't even know what happened
我不知道发生了什么 [00:32.313]I was born inside of this sx1t
我自出生就身处这糟糕的环境中 [00:33.620]My fvxkin' parents scrappin', I was mortified as a kid
我的父母总是在打架，作为他们的孩子我感到羞愧 [00:36.702]Police always at my house all because of my daddy's temper
警察总是光顾我家，只因我爸那可怕的脾气 [00:39.811]Man, this sx1t been goin' on 'bout as long as I can remember
这些破事自我记事起就一直在发生着 [00:42.971]He always blamed my mom for this sx1t he didn't accomplish
我爸总是因为他自己也做不到的事情责怪我妈 [00:45.923]I'd hide in the corner like a guinea pig in the process
这时我只能像个豚鼠一样躲在角落里 [00:48.771]Just knowin' he 'bout to smack the fvxkin' teeth out her mouth
因为我知道他会过来打碎我的牙 [00:51.644]It's like when it came to some type of drama
这就像是某种戏剧里上演的那样 [00:53.812]He got aroused, no joke
不开玩笑，他真的上头了 [00:55.380]There was the moments where dad would slowly be creepin' up
这样的时刻里他的怒火会慢慢升起 [00:58.044]I would jump in front of my mama, "Please don't beat her up"
我会跳起来挡在我妈的身前：“请不要打她！” [01:00.970]I ain't never spoke on this sx1t, the memories are rough
我从来不谈论这些破事，那些瞬间就这样爆发 [01:03.922]Smiles and hugs, that's just somethin' you'll never see in us
你永远不会看到我们之间的微笑和拥抱 [01:07.082]You know the pain when your parents tell you to go and play
你懂得那种痛苦，当你的父母让你自己去玩 [01:09.747]Then hours later you see your mom and she got a swollen face
几个小时后你却看到母亲被打肿的脸 [01:13.038]I hope you don't relate, I just learned how to cope today
我希望你不会感同身受，现在我学会了如何去处理 [01:15.886]From the days when I would pick up the phone and say
从那些日子中学习，那时我会拿起电话然后说： [01:18.263]I gotta leave here now
现在我要离开这里 [01:20.562]My mom and dad actin' crazy and this ain't right
我的父母已经疯了，本不应如此 [01:24.010]And they've been goin' back and forth all night
他们已经反复争吵了一整晚 [01:26.883]I wanna stay at your house tonight
所以今夜我想留在你的家里 [01:29.469]'Cause I don't wanna to hear my dad fightin' momma no more
因为我再也不想听到我爸殴打我妈了 [01:32.787]I don't wanna hear the police at the front door
我不想听见警察出现在我家门口的声音 [01:35.660]Can I stay at your house?
我可以留在你的家里吗？ [01:38.847]I want to stay at your house tonight (Your house tonight)
今夜我想留在你的家里 [01:42.374]I would go to school feelin' so frightened, yeah, I was scared
我总是胆战心惊地去上学，是的我很害怕 [01:45.378]Not knowin' if I'ma go home findin' my momma dead
无法预料是否当我回家时母亲已经死了 [01:48.513]Every other fvxkin' day, dad was always losin' control
每隔一天我爸就会变得失控 [01:51.334]He was actin' like a fvxkin' ape, runnin' loose in our home
他就像只发了疯的人猿，在家里挣脱了束缚 [01:54.338]Man ever since I was born they was pessimistic and torn
自从我出生后，他们就变得如此悲观又犹豫 [01:57.264]It's evident, but regardless they'd never get a divorce
这很显然，但不管怎样他们还是没有离婚 [02:00.242]God, I wish they got around it, just checkin' into some counselin'
天啊我真希望他们能处理好他们的关系，去做些咨询也好 [02:03.533]We could have been a happy family inside our house again
在这房子里我们本可以重新拥有幸福的家庭 [02:06.563]I said again is if we ever were, that's false
我这样说好像我们曾经幸福过一样，其实这不是真的 [02:09.332]Sx1t I dealt with growin' up, will forever hurt, I'm lost
我成长过程中经历的这些将永远地刺痛我，我已经迷惘了 [02:12.180]We weren't nothin' like the families I used to see on the sitcoms
我们从不像那些我看过的情景剧里的家庭 [02:15.314]We were horrible with bonds, I can no longer sit calm
我们的关系糟透了，我没法冷静地坐在那里 [02:18.344]I would see that my friends had a life at home, that was peaceful
我唯一能看见的就是我的朋友们拥有的安宁的生活 [02:21.296]They were lovable people, who didn't function like we do
他们都是好人，从来不会像我们一样 [02:24.222]Oh how I wish I can redo the pain of the wicked days
我多希望我能让那些痛苦和扭曲的日子重来 [02:27.122]When I'd pick up the telephone, call a friend and say
那些日子里我拿起电话，打给我的朋友对他说： [02:29.760]I gotta leave here now
现在我要离开这里 [02:32.163]My mom and dad actin' crazy and this ain't right
我的父母已经疯了，本不应如此 [02:35.481]And they've been goin' back and forth all night
他们已经反复争吵了一整晚 [02:38.407]I wanna stay at your house tonight
所以今夜我想留在你的家里 [02:41.045]'Cause I don't wanna to hear my dad fightin' momma no more
因为我再也不想听到我爸殴打我妈了 [02:44.180]I don't wanna hear the police at the front door
我不想听见警察出现在我家门口的声音 [02:47.158]Can I stay at your house?
我可以留在你的家里吗？ [02:50.397]I wanna stay at your house tonight (Your house tonight)
今夜我想留在你的家里 [02:54.315]I ain't placin' the blame sayin' it's mom or dad's fault
我不会随意责怪，认为这是父母的错 [02:57.267]But all those traumas I had stuck with me as an adult
但所有这些创伤一直伴随我直至成人 [03:00.271]And it ignited these mad thoughts that I seem to have often
并且点燃这些我时常会有的疯狂念头 [03:03.458]Yeah, that's Hopsin, music is where my last straw went
是的，这就是我Hopsin，音乐是我能抓住的最后一根稻草 [03:06.514]Now I'm devoted to always give you my true life
现在我总是尽力地向你们展现我真实的生活 [03:09.127]The love I never felt growin' up I get it from you guys
我成长的过程中从未感受过的爱，我却从你们的身上感受到了 [03:12.209]Please don't get it twisted, I love both my parents to death
但不要曲解了我的意思，我至死都爱着我的父母 [03:15.135]I just think there's issues a lot of fvxkin' parents neglect
我只是觉得有那么多不称职的父母都忽视了这些事情 [03:18.426]We all got these traumas we carry and sometimes it's scary
我们都经历过这些创伤，有时这很可怕 [03:21.378]'Cause we buried a nest, right there in our chest
因为我们在内心深处埋葬了巢穴 [03:23.677]And we subconsciously air and project our nightmares and the stress
我们无意识地晾晒与投射着我们的梦魇与痛苦 [03:26.733]That we dealt with when we were younger
那些我们在过去经历过的 [03:28.353]And that's why therapy's best, listen
这就是为什么治疗是最好的办法，听着 [03:30.390]If you got kids of your own and you throwin' tantrums
如果你为人父母却总是在发泄怒火 [03:33.029]Don't be oblivious and assume that it won't impact them
不要毫不在意地认为这不会影响他们 [03:36.059]Children follow the protocol of their parents' blueprint
孩子总是遵循着父母们蓝图中的协议（孩子会模仿父母的行为） [03:38.828]So when there's an issue, they might handle it just how you did (You did, you did)
所以当这样的事情发生，他们可能会处理得像你一样差劲 [03:44.496]I gotta leave here now
现在我要离开这里 [03:46.691]My mom and dad actin' crazy and this ain't right
我的父母已经疯了，本不应如此 [03:49.956]And they've been goin' back and forth all night
他们已经反复争吵了一整晚 [03:52.908]I wanna stay at your house tonight
所以今夜我想留在你的家里 [03:55.598]'Cause I don't wanna to hear my dad fightin' momma no more
因为我再也不想听到我爸殴打我妈了 [03:58.785]I don't wanna hear the police at the front door
我不想听见警察出现在我家门口的声音 [04:01.711]Can I stay at your house?
我可以留在你的家里吗？ [04:04.872]I wanna stay at your house tonight (Your house tonight)
今夜我想留在你的家里