I Wonder (feat. Erin Kim)-gowe

[00:20.38]uh,gowe ,Gifted Of West East,
Uh，Gowe,东西方之结晶 [00:24.26]this song is a dedicated
让我把这首歌献给 [00:25.70]to a very special woman
一个十分特别的女人 [00:27.83]who had me at the tender age of eighteen
那个在十八岁就生下我的女人 [00:30.58]I never had a chance to see you
我从没机会见到你 [00:32.59]this is a dedicated to you
但这首歌是送给你的 [00:34.60]My Ma
妈妈 [00:36.81]This is her story(Check it out)
这是她的故事（开始吧） [00:40.68]Her mind was confused with a plus at the tip of the tube
她被身上的那些插着的管子所困惑着 [00:43.55]Sick as she threw up with a cup take a sip of abuse
孕吐中却还要忍受那些痛苦 [00:46.36]So she gets nervous cause her man left her
她变得不安起来，因为她的男人离开了她 [00:49.53]After the *** and he jets she thought that he loved her
OOXX之后他就远走高飞了但是她却以为他依然爱着他 [00:52.19]You see shes 18, and shes a bit conscious
这时候的她才十八岁， [00:54.92]About her dress and the reflection of her own image
对自己的穿衣打扮和形象都还有些自己的想法 [00:57.86]Timid in speech, shes limited given a week
这种事却难以启口，她害怕的躲在家里一个星期都不敢出门 [01:00.35]With her tummy blowing up so that people can see
她的肚子越来越大，大到人们都已经显而易见了 [01:03.34]But she decides to keep it, said no to abortion
但是她决定生下这个孩子，她说不会去堕胎 [01:06.26]The feet kicks in her stomach comes without a warning
婴儿的脚没有预警地一次又一次地踢她的肚子 [01:09.60]She feels the pain though, cause her parents cry
她感受到了疼痛，是因为他的家人在哭泣 [01:11.93]And the shame eats her alive when she closed her eyes
她闭上眼睛，感觉羞辱在吞噬着她 [01:14.73]Then the day comes, she gives birth to a son
日子终将来临，她生了一个儿子 [01:17.70]Kim Sung-Hoon, soon she holds and kisses her love
金星宏，她抱着，亲吻着她的挚爱 [01:20.40]Wishing it never ended, taking a mental picture
就让时间定格在这个画面吧 [01:23.33]Hoping through her tears that her son would have a better future
她的眼泪中，充满着她的儿子会有一个更好地未来的希望 [01:26.70]I wonder if theres a smile on your face
我不知道你的脸上是否常挂微笑 [01:30.93]Sometimes I miss you and long for your embrace
有时候，我很想念你，也渴望得到你的拥抱 [01:36.57]I never could thank you, enough for holding on
我从来没有机会感谢你，我也没有放弃这种想法 [01:42.73]Dear mama mama mama, forever, I’ll hold you in my heart
亲爱的妈妈啊，在我心里你永远没有离开过我 [01:49.55]So she wonders, what happened to her son next
然后她在想啊，她的儿子将来会怎样 [01:51.92]Is there clothes on his back, food on his plate whats the context
他披在身上的衣服是怎样的，盘子里的吃的是什么东西，过得还好吗 [01:54.68]The recollection of the day replays in her mindset
又不断回想起以前的日子 [01:57.24]And the ways she would try but just never could forget
她想忘记那些但是却怎么也忘不掉 [02:00.24]Well he’s okay, and he resides in the states
现在他过得还好，居住在美国 [02:03.12]A needle in space in which rain makes it a beautiful place
雨点像针一样刺着这个美丽的地方 [02:05.99]Embraced by the culture and he’s loved by all the members
他适应了这个地方的文化还有那些我爱的好朋友们 [02:08.53]Until he turns 18 and his world get flipped
直到他十八岁那年的一天，他的世界观颠倒了 [02:11.39]He hears that his mom is not actually his and that complications
因为他听说正在抚养他的妈妈并不是他的亲生母亲，那个抚养他的妈妈 [02:14.65]Prevented her from having any kids and his real mom
并没有任何自己亲生的孩子（应该是不能生育），而他的真正的母亲 [02:18.60]Is actually Korean and she had, to give him up for adoption
是在韩国生下他的，然后她把他遗弃了 [02:21.68]Cause she was young and was a student
因为那时她还非常的年轻而且还是个学生 [02:23.34]Lost and was confused and, wrestling in the moment
在流言蜚语中迷失，困惑，挣扎 [02:25.90]Am I Chinese or Korean? Am I destined in this union?
我是中国人还是韩国人？而我的命运却在美国吗？ [02:28.58]And if I am what’s the purpose? I jot it in my verses
我是故意为之的产物吗？我把这些都记在我的歌词里 [02:31.53]So I replay it in my mind as I think about you
我不断在脑子里重复想着这些事情，想着你…… [02:34.25]I wonder if theres a smile on your face
我不知道你的脸上是否常挂微笑 [02:39.66]Sometimes I miss you and long for your embrace
有时候，我很想念你，也渴望得到你的拥抱 [02:45.17]I never could thank you, enough for holding on
我从来没有机会感谢你，我也没有放弃这种想法 [02:51.16]Dear mama mama mama, forever, I’ll hold you in my heart
亲爱的妈妈啊，在我心里你永远没有离开过我 [02:58.50]If I could write a letter, and know that you would read it
如果你能读到这封信，我知道你会读到它的 [03:00.54]I would tell you that I never once in my heart felt hatred
我只想告诉你我在心里从来没有怪你 [03:03.36]Reinstated I would play a song and dance with you
我只想跟你唱一首歌，跟你跳一支舞，如果可以的话 [03:06.24]Hold your hand as I thank the Lord for creating you
牵着你的手，然后感谢上苍让你出现了 [03:09.12]As strong as you are cause in my mind I can’t fathom
就像你当初我无法想象的那样坚强 [03:11.97]The pain and the guilt when all you heard was their gossip
你当时所感受到的那些痛苦和内疚都是那些人的流言蜚语 [03:14.76]And still you stuck through it, when they called you foolish
但是在他们觉得你是个可笑的傻瓜的时候你却仍然坚持撑了下来 [03:17.57]And with this gift that I possess your probably loved music
我热爱音乐的这个天赋也许就是你给我的吧 [03:20.59]I hope you’re doing well, I hope some day you’ll see this
我希望你现在过得很好，我希望将来有一天你可以看见这封信 [03:23.45]I hope I mean I really hope that you know Jesus on a deeper level
我希望，说实话我真的希望你可以多了解一些耶稣的事情 [03:27.12]Seeking just to know Him better, I hope in perfect timing we can
就是能更好的理解他，我希望在一个适合的时间我们可以 [03:30.76]See the reason clearer, I hope you’re smiling now
把话说得更清楚明了，但现在我希望你可以微笑 [03:33.48]I hope I cross your mind, I hope you never second guess
我希望我能进入你的世界，我希望你可以敞开心扉 [03:36.14]If what you did was right, cause I’m so proud of you
如果你做的都问心无愧，我为你感到骄傲 [03:38.98]I love and admire you, so after all these years this is my way of telling you
我爱你，也很崇拜你，这就是我这些年来走过的路，请让我对你诉说 [03:42.87]I wonder if theres a smile on your face
我不知道你的脸上是否常挂微笑 [03:48.26]Sometimes I miss you and long for your embrace
有时候，我很想念你，也渴望得到你的拥抱 [03:53.39]I never could thank you, enough for holding on
我从来没有机会感谢你，我也没有放弃这种想法 [03:59.86]Dear mama mama mama, forever, I’ll hold you in my heart
亲爱的妈妈啊，在我心里你永远没有离开过我 [04:06.19]I wonder if theres a smile on your face
我不知道你的脸上是否常挂微笑 [04:10.94]Sometimes I miss you and long for your embrace
有时候，我很想念你，也渴望得到你的拥抱 [04:16.63]I never could thank you, enough for holding on
我从来没有机会感谢你，我也没有放弃这种想法 [04:22.69]Dear mama mama mama, forever, I’ll hold you in my heart
亲爱的妈妈啊，在我心里你永远没有离开过我