Charlotte Sometimes-秋观地

[00:04.387]Charlotte Sometimes [00:07.335]若有若无的夏洛特 [00:36.964]The diary lay beneath the floorboard, [00:39.294]日记本静卧地板夹缝之下 [00:40.901]Wrapped in old 1998 newspaper print [00:42.880]裹着泛黄的 1998 年旧报纸 [00:48.056]Charlotte’s handwriting untouched, frozen at twelve years old [00:51.161]夏洛特的字迹完好如初，永远停留在十二岁那年 [00:53.137]“I’ve made up my mind to leave this Thursday” [00:55.650]「我已下定决心，本周四离开」 [00:59.675]Thursday was the day they found her bike abandoned by the river [01:02.194]而就在那个周四，人们在河边发现了她遗弃的单车 [01:17.533]She read it all through one still afternoon [01:19.219]一个寂静的午后，她读完了整本日记 [01:22.887]Attic dust thick and sharp inside her throat [01:25.390]阁楼尘土飞扬，呛得喉咙发紧 [01:29.372]Charlotte wrote of the neighbor’s dog, the math exam days [01:31.674]夏洛特写下邻家的小狗、数学考试的日子 [01:34.439]The strange hum of their father’s car when he was drunk [01:37.422]还有父亲醉酒时，汽车发出诡异的嗡鸣 [01:40.343]But never, not once, did she write her sister’s name [01:43.151]可自始至终，她从未写下姐姐的名字半句 [01:46.828]No line of Emma helped me with fractions [01:50.070]没有只言片语提起艾玛帮我补习分数 [01:52.255]No phrase of Emma and I [01:54.736]没有一句 “我和艾玛” [01:55.072]Only “I”, forever “I” [01:56.699]通篇只剩「我」，永远只有「我」 [01:58.119]Alone in every quiet line [01:59.921]字字行行，皆是孤身一人 [02:05.758]Charlotte sometimes walked to school side by side [02:09.265]曾经夏洛特也会和她并肩走在上学路上 [02:11.239]Charlotte sometimes sat at the family table at night [02:14.140]曾经夜晚夏洛特也会坐在家中餐桌旁 [02:16.557]But in the pages of her departure tale [02:19.465]可在这本诉说离别往事的纸页里 [02:21.512]There’s only one character alive [02:23.335]鲜活存在的，自始至终只有一人 [02:27.513]And Emma was not in it [02:29.420]而艾玛，不在其中 [02:30.659]Was never in it [02:32.189]从来都不在 [02:33.808]Would never be in it [02:35.965]往后也永远不会在 [04:18.082]The final entry bore a Wednesday date [04:19.594]最后一篇日记，落款是周三 [04:23.661]“I’ve got enough bread to last two days. [04:25.727]「我备好足够两天充饥的面包 [04:29.503]The river path stays quiet. [04:30.815]河畔小路向来僻静 [04:32.067]No soul wanders there past six. [04:33.565]六点过后，再无行人踪迹 [04:34.955]I’ll be my own sole witness.” [04:36.534]我只做自己唯一的见证者」 [04:40.855]Emma closed the diary slow. [04:42.231]艾玛缓缓合上日记本 [04:46.233]She’d spent all this time searching for herself inside. [04:48.061]长久以来，她都在这本日记里寻找自己的痕迹 [04:50.909]She wasn’t there. [04:52.852]可她根本不在里面 [04:54.230]She’d never been there. [04:55.607]从来都未曾存在过 [04:57.820]Dust settled soft, the attic sank into shadow [05:00.955]尘埃缓缓落定，阁楼沉入幽深暗影 [05:03.718]She never reached for the light switch, never turned it on [05:07.128]她始终没有伸手去按电灯开关，任由黑暗笼罩 [05:09.406]Sat frozen, erased from another’s story [05:12.138]僵坐原地，在他人的故事里被彻底抹去 [05:13.843]Till she could no longer tell [05:15.124]直到最后，她已分不清 [05:16.226]If she was merely the reader… [05:17.960]自己究竟只是故事的旁观者…… [05:20.084]Or the empty silence between the lines [05:21.150]还是字里行间，那片空洞无言的留白 [05:35.664]