Stan (Recorded at Spotify Studios NYC)-Alec Benjamin

[00:01.226] My tea's gone cold
人走茶凉 [00:02.238] I'm wondering why I got out of bed at all
我不知道为什么我总是难以入眠 [00:06.942] The morning rain cloud touched my window
密雨斜侵 [00:09.924] And I can't see at all
我什么都看不见 [00:12.696] And even if I could it would all be gray
一片灰暗 [00:16.223] I put your picture on my wall
只有墙上你的相片 [00:18.344] It reminds me that it's not so bad it's not so bad
还安慰着我似乎一切并不那么糟 [00:23.948] Dear Slim I wrote you but you
我记着给你写信，Slim [00:25.567] Still ain't callin'
可你毫无音讯 [00:26.542] I left my cell my pager and
我记得我在信尾 [00:27.802] My home phone at the bottom
留下了我的地址、姓名和电话 [00:29.395] I sent two letters back in
那个秋日 我在信中写了好多话给你 [00:30.498] Autumn you must not've got 'em
可从来没有回音 [00:32.301] There probably was a problem
大概哪里搞错了吧 [00:33.447] At the post office or somethin'
也许是邮局还是别的问题 [00:35.042] Sometimes I scribble addresses too sloppy when I jot 'em
有时我老把地址写的很潦草随意 [00:37.680] But anyways **** it what's been up man how's your daughter
那又如何呢 你的女儿过得怎么样 [00:41.069] My girlfriend's pregnant too I'm 'bout to be a father
我的女友怀孕了 所以我也快要成为一个父亲了 就像你一样 [00:43.559] If I have a daughter guess what I'ma call her
要是也是个女孩 你猜我会给她起个什么名字呢 [00:46.306] I'ma name her Bonnie
我会叫她Bonnie吧 [00:47.316] I read about your Uncle
当我知道你的叔叔Ronnie的事情 [00:48.654] Ronnie too I'm sorry
我阴郁许久 [00:49.661] I had a friend kill himself over
我有个哥们 他自杀了 [00:51.270] Some b***h who didn't want him
因为他被一个贱货女人抛弃了 [00:52.907] I know you probably hear this
也许你每天听这样的故事而厌烦 [00:54.235] Every day but I'm your biggest fan
但我还是忍不住对你讲 [00:56.144] I even got the underground
我甚至弄到了 [00:57.335] shit that you did with Skam
你和Skam一起创作的地下音乐 [00:59.259] I got a room full of your
我将我的房间贴满了关于你的一切 [01:00.376] Posters and your pictures man
海报 照片 周边 [01:01.645] I like the shit you did
我迷恋你的音乐 [01:02.761] With Rawkus too that shit was phat
尤其是和Rawkus合作的曲目 [01:04.151] Anyways I hope you get this
无论怎样 我真是希望你能看到我写的这些文字 [01:05.978] Man hit me back
我渴望着你的回信 [01:07.308] Just to chat truly yours
即便是简单的寒暄 [01:08.633] Your biggest fan this is Stan
我是Stan 你最最忠实的粉丝 [01:10.162] My tea's gone cold
茶汤渐凉 [01:12.600] I'm wondering why I got out of bed at all
我的心也冷了 [01:16.925] The morning rain cloud touched my window
雨水击打窗棂 [01:20.054] And I can't see at all
我的心也蒙上了灰 [01:22.651] And even if I could it would all be gray
仿佛我的世界一片灰暗 [01:25.570] I put your picture on my wall
还好有满墙的你的照片 [01:28.454] It reminds me that it's not so bad
让我心安一些 [01:32.402] It's not so bad
也许没那么糟 [01:34.133] Dear Slim you still ain't called or
你还是没有回我的信，Slim [01:35.884] Wrote hope you have a chance
我殷切期盼你的回应 [01:37.277] I ain't mad I just think it's
其实我没有生气 [01:38.303] ****ed up you don't answer fans
只是觉得不给歌迷回信还挺让人糟糕的 [01:39.813] If you don't wanna to talk
如果 [01:40.908] To me outside your concert
你实在不想在台下理我 [01:42.324] You didn't have to
那至少 [01:43.438] But you coulda signed an autograph for Matthew
应该为Matthew签个名呗 [01:45.489] That's my little brother
那是我弟弟 [01:46.538] Man he's only six years old
他只有六岁 [01:47.894] We waited in the blisterin' cold
我们在寒风里瑟瑟发抖 [01:49.406] For you for four hours
等了好久好久 [01:50.410] And you just said no
可你只是说了声不 [01:51.655] That's pretty shitty man
这真让人讨厌 [01:52.976] You're like his ****in' idol
他竟然还把你当成他的偶像 [01:54.209] He wants to be just like you man
他想成为你那样的人 [01:55.631] He likes you more than I do
你比我还要迷恋你 [01:57.226] I ain't that mad though
我没那么生气 [01:58.375] I just don't like being lied to
就是讨厌被欺骗的感觉 [01:59.950] Remember when we met in Denver
我还记得我们在Denver偶遇 [02:01.582] You said if I'd write you
你说要是我写信给你 [02:02.669] You would write back
你肯定会回信 [02:03.938] See I'm just like you in a way
看吧 我们在某方面挺相似的 [02:05.099] I never knew my father neither
我从不知道我的父亲是谁 [02:06.699] He used to always cheat
他总是背着我妈在外面乱搞 [02:07.797] On my mom and beat her
还常常虐待她 [02:09.400] I can relate to what you're sayin'
我总是能在你的歌里 [02:10.799] In your songs
找到我的影子 [02:11.731] So when I have a shitty day
于是 那些低沉阴郁的日子里 [02:12.975] I drift away and put 'em on
我总是听着这些歌飙车 [02:14.410] 'Cause I don't really got shit else
因为 [02:15.871] So that shit helps when I'm depressed
只有你的歌能走进我的心 [02:17.305] I even got a tattoo of your
我甚至 [02:18.954] Name across the chest
在胸口纹上了你的名字 [02:20.455] Sometimes I even cut myself
我有时会自残 [02:21.972] To see how much it bleeds
来看看我到底能流多少血 [02:23.324] It's like adrenaline
挺刺激的 [02:24.223] The pain is such a sudden rush for me
那种真实的痛感一阵阵袭来 [02:26.129] See everything you say is real
是啊你说得都对呢 [02:27.393] And I respect you 'cause you tell it
我尊重你 因为你愿意说那些话 [02:29.073] My girlfriend's jealous 'cause
连我的女友都在嫉妒你 [02:30.657] I talk about you ２４７
因为我无时不刻都在谈论你 [02:32.386] But she don't know you like I know you
但她一点丢不了解你 [02:34.281] Slim no one does
没人能 [02:35.329] She don't know what it was like
他们根本不会懂 [02:36.384] For people like us growin' up
不懂我们这样成长的人 [02:37.587] You gotta call me man
你得回我 [02:38.774] I'll be the biggest fan you'll ever lose
不然你会失去你最最忠实的粉丝 [02:40.520] Sincerely yours Stan
你的歌迷 Stan [02:41.762] PS we should be together too
（我们应该走在一起 [02:43.983] My tea's gone cold
茶水已凉 [02:45.875] I'm wondering why I got out of bed at all
辗转反侧 难以入眠 [02:50.599] The morning rain cloud touched my window
清晨的雨淅淅沥沥 [02:53.378] And I can't see at all
我已看不清这个世界 [02:56.253] And even if I could it would all be gray
我的世界是灰色的 就像我的心也是灰色 [02:59.191] I put your picture on my wall
唯独那些你的照片 [03:02.104] It reminds me that it's not so bad
点亮微光 [03:05.990] It's not so bad
温暖着我的心 [03:07.512] And the story isn't over, but I have to tell the truth
故事还没结束 但真相即将揭晓 [03:09.882] I know I couldn't do it justice, only one who could is you
我知道我做不到公正地评判 而这只有你能 [03:12.461] Because I idolized you Marshall, and nobody understands
因为我十分崇拜你Marshall 也没有人理解我为什么如此痴狂 [03:15.924] Maybe I'm a little crazy, maybe I am just like Stan, damn
也许我有点狂热过头 也许我就是那个 Stan