Sinner-Phora

[00:07.72]So much ************t goin'on right now [00:10.11]Way too much [00:13.79]When I speak it's like ya'll don't hear [00:16.03]Why I feel like God don't care [00:17.81]Why I feel like I ain't good as no one else [00:19.19]I'm searching but my pride ain't there [00:21.30]I just feel like life ain't fair [00:23.08]My boy got shot died right there [00:25.35]But me I died twice and came back to life [00:27.39]So tell me how can I be scared [00:28.97]Why do I gotta doubt myself [00:31.04]All ever do is doubt myself [00:32.67]Drink liquor till the head gets consumed by the pint like [00:34.90]I don't care about my health [00:36.39]Really I'm just trying to numb the pain [00:38.03]Love and hate it all just feels the same [00:40.34]Won't say I'm affected by the fame [00:41.83]But even my momma know I changed [00:43.90]So I get drunk till I can't feel [00:46.05]The love fake the pain real [00:47.48]Got so many scars it ain't heal [00:49.43]But I gotta soul bullets can't kill [00:51.36]Why I feel like cops just want to pop me [00:53.30]Pop's never had a pot to piss in [00:55.48]Probably pack a nine on his hip then sit beside me [00:57.32]Pray to God there's no triple six inside me [00:59.31]No I can't let the devil in mind [01:01.08]Same time the church will tum you blind [01:03.05]Last time I heard a preacher preach a sermon [01:04.53]All I heard him say was sinner's going to die [01:06.46]And they will never get to see a Heaven [01:08.69]With all due respect ******* the reverend [01:10.34]Cause I know life is doing 25 [01:12.41]Praying for early death like it's a blessing [01:14.06]This for my people going through depression [01:16.39]This for the kids who never felt affection [01:18.08]This for the kids whose parents don't accept them [01:20.06]Saying they love everyone else except them [01:22.02]I know what it's like to feel alone [01:23.64]I know what it's like to need a home [01:25.03]I know what it's like to not know what it's like [01:27.54]To have a love you can call your own [01:29.23]See I done tried every single ******* drug on that shelf [01:32.55]Trust me man it don't help [01:35.26]I just feel like I'm losing myself [01:43.02]I just feel like I'm losing myself [01:49.91]I just feel like I'm losing myself [01:57.79]I just feel like I'm losing myself [02:05.05]I just feel like I'm losing myself [02:21.25]Why I feel like love don't last [02:23.25]Things change when you move so fast [02:25.56]I was trying to focus on us in the future [02:26.83]You was focused on my past [02:29.04]If you left I would lose my soul [02:30.45]Promise me that you won't let go [02:32.64]See I just need love it's funny I got all money but my heart still broke [02:36.32]So many times I said I’ma change [02:38.36]Just to turn around and do the same [02:39.94]Same ************t that's been putting you in pain [02:42.23]I know I'm the only one to blame [02:43.86]So I get drunk till I can't see [02:45.74]I love you but I hate me [02:47.25]Trying to be someone I can't be [02:49.44]And I ain't been myself lately [02:51.36]Why I feel like I'm the only one that got me [02:53.10]You could take the same 45 that shot me [02:54.78]Pop the clip in,****** it back and put that mother****** to my head,you'll never stop my [02:58.74]Yeah I be living life on the edge [03:01.09]Suicide all in my head [03:02.74]Why the world don't care about one else's life till they already dead [03:06.11]I just wish pops was back to how he was [03:08.61]Cause he ain't been the same since the drugs [03:10.64]And I ain't been the same since he said the worst form of pain is not being loved [03:14.07]So we use the drugs they gave to us [03:16.06]To replace the love the world takes from us [03:18.51]Lately I don't even know who to trust [03:19.60]They saying even Satan was an angel once [03:22.01]So I can't feel ************t so numb that I can't feel ************t [03:25.37]Living just to die we dying just to live this life it doesn't make no sense [03:29.06]See I done tried every single ******* drug on that shelf [03:32.15]Trust me man it don't help [03:35.16]I just feel like I'm losing myself [03:42.20]I just feel like I'm losing myself [03:49.49]I just feel like I'm losing myself [03:57.36]I just feel like I'm losing myself [04:04.59]I just feel like I'm losing myself