Auntie Diaries-Kendrick Lamar

[00:00.000] 作词 : Kendrick Lamar/Matt Schaeffer/Homer Steinweiss/Craig Balmoris/Tyler Mehlenbacher/Sergiu Gherman/Daniel Tannenbaum/Daniel Krieger/Johnny Kosich/Jake Kosich [00:00.016] 作曲 : Kendrick Lamar/Matt Schaeffer/Homer Steinweiss/Craig Balmoris/Tyler Mehlenbacher/Sergiu Gherman/Daniel Tannenbaum/Daniel Krieger/Johnny Kosich/Jake Kosich [00:00.033]Heart plays in waves, the mind can't figure out
心之所愿 不能用头脑去分析 [00:02.801]Heart plays in waves, the mind can't figure out
心之感悟 不能用精神去思考 [00:05.576]Heart plays in waves, the mind can't figure out
心之跳动 思维无法捕捉 [00:08.592]This is how we conceptualize human beings
我们对人类的认知就是这样的 [00:11.302] [00:20.628]My auntie is a man now
我的姑妈现在是个男人了 [00:23.190]I think I'm old enough to understand now
随着我长大 我也开始慢慢理解这件事了 [00:26.427]Drinking Paul Masson with her hat turned backwards
她反戴帽子 喝着Paul Masson（酒的品牌）的白兰地 [00:28.487]Motorola pager off like, "Yes, Jackie"
拿着摩托罗拉的寻呼机 披着全白的Guess外套 [00:31.040]Blue Air Max's, gold chains and curl kits
蓝色的Air Max耐克鞋 金色项链 还有整盒的美发产品 [00:33.772]'93 Nissan wax job, the earliest
开着93年的尼桑 打着最新的车蜡 [00:35.779]Big social, big personality, vocal
她是社交达人 性格外向 大大咧咧 [00:38.342]Played underground verbatim and stayed local
说出口的话都很underground 保持街头的范 [00:40.731]My auntie is a man now
我的姑妈现在是个男人了 [00:43.225]I watch him and his girl hold their hands down
夜幕降临 小巷深处 街灯之下 [00:45.844]Tip of the avenues street lights made his
我看着他和他的女朋友手牵手 [00:47.707]Thinking, "I want me a bad b***h when I get big"
心里想着“我长大之后也要找一个那样的bad bitch” [00:50.340]They walk the corner like California king
他们二人在街角慢慢地走着 像是整个加州的国王（双关，California King床垫） [00:52.231]Cold hand all up her skirt, cars whistling down the road
冰冷的手伸在她的裙子里 汽车呼啸而过 [00:54.660]See, my auntie is a man now, slight bravado
是这样的，我的姑妈现在是个男人了 这很冒险 [00:58.157]Scratching the likes from lotto
挂着乐透彩票 希望自己中奖 [00:59.691]Hoping that she pull up tomorrow
而我希望明天她能开车来接我 [01:00.929]So I can hang out in the front seat
这样我能坐在车的前排 [01:02.366]Six by nines keeping the music up under me
6×9英寸的车载音响 音乐在我座位下振动 [01:04.556]My auntie is a man now
我的姑妈现在是男人了 [01:06.949]Asked my momma why my uncles don't like him that much
我问妈妈 为什么叔叔 舅舅们都不喜欢他？ [01:09.391]And at the parties why they always wanna fight him that much
在家庭聚会的时候 为什么他们总是和他吵架？ [01:11.609]She said "Ain't no telling
她回答我“我也说不清楚 [01:13.717]Niggas always been jealous because he had more women
他们那帮人总是羡慕他能找到更多女人 [01:15.903]More money and more attention made more envy
他赚更多钱 更吸引别人注意 所以引起更多嫉妒 [01:17.916]Calling him anything but than broke was less offending"
只要不叫他穷光蛋 就没那么冒犯人” [01:20.373] [01:21.671]My auntie is a man now
我的姑妈现在是个男人了 [01:23.660]I think I'm old enough to understand now
我觉得自己已经长大了 理解这件事了 [01:25.835]Drinking Paul Masson with her hat turned backwards
她反戴鸭舌帽 喝着Paul Masson白兰地 [01:28.025]Back when it was comedic relief to say "nigga"
在当时 叫别人F****t不过是一种娱乐的消遣 [01:30.678]Nigga, nigga nigga, we ain't know no better
“F****t, f****t, f****t”我们并不懂这词什么意思 [01:33.568]Elementary kids with no filter however
都是小学生 看待事物没有任何滤镜 [01:35.802]My auntie became a man and I took pride in it
我姑妈变成了男人 我感觉很自豪 [01:37.964]She wasn't gay, she ate p***y, and that was the difference
她不是什么les，她只是和女的发生关系，这就是区别 [01:40.443]That's what I told my friends in second grade
二年级时，我就是这么告诉我的朋友们的 [01:42.751]She picking me up from school, they stare at her in the face
她从学校接我放学，同学们惊诧地盯着她的脸 [01:45.390]They couldn't comprehend what I grew accustomed
我早已习以为常的事情 他们并不理解 [01:47.717]We pull off bumpin' quick like it was nothing
我们开着车走了 没把他们放在心上 [01:50.363]My auntie is a man now, what a relationship
我姑妈现在是个男人了 我们关系很好 [01:53.537]I grew up fast, I needed no one to babysit
我长得很快 不再需要他照顾我了 [01:55.863]He gave me some cash then gave me some gang
他给了我点零花钱 介绍了帮派 [01:57.674]Cherry freshener on the dash, I never complained
樱桃味的空气清新剂放在汽车里 我生活滋润 没什么好抱怨的 [01:59.507]She even cut my hair at the pad, was loving my fade
她甚至还在她家里帮我理发 我很喜欢那个发型 [02:01.443]The first person I seen write a rap
她也是我第一个认识的 自己写说唱的人 [02:03.963]That's when my life had changed
正是那一刻改变了我的人生 [02:06.176]House full of demo, smoke stuck on the window
满屋子都是她录的demo，香烟卡在窗口 [02:07.747]Cameras on the microphone, all women and men though
麦克风上架着相机 但里面都是男人和女人在一起 [02:10.643]My auntie was a man now, we cool with it
我的姑妈现在是个男人了，我们都觉得没问题 [02:12.924]The history had trickled down and made us ig'nant
历史的影响向下渗透 让我们变得无知 [02:16.286]My favorite cousin said he's returning the favor
和我关系最好的表哥 说他要报答母亲 [02:18.390]And following my auntie with the same behavior
于是学着我姑妈 从此变成了女人 [02:20.810] [02:21.215]Demetrius is Mary-Ann now
德米特律斯（“我”的表哥）现在叫玛丽安了 [02:22.847]He's more confident to live his plan now
他现在能更自信地去实现人生的计划了 [02:25.154]But the family in disbelief this time
但整个家庭都感到难以置信 [02:27.628]Convincing themselves "He ain't living discreet, he's fine"
试图说服他们自己：“他只是生活放荡而已，没大问题” [02:30.086]They said they never seen it in him, but I seen it
他们说，从没在他身上看到过女生的影子，但我看见过 [02:32.415]The Barbie dolls played off the reflection of Venus
那些芭比娃娃在他眼里散发着女神维纳斯的光芒 [02:35.384]He built a wall so tall you couldn't climb over
他在自己四周建造了无人能攀越的墙 [02:37.955]He didn't laugh as hard when the kids start joking
小朋友们在一起打打闹闹时 唯独他笑得没有那么开心 [02:40.503]"Nigga, nigga, nigga" We ain't know no better
“F****t, f****t, f****t”我们并不懂这个词的意思 [02:42.885]Middle school kids with no filter, however
都是初中生 看待事物没有任何滤镜 [02:45.322]I had to be very mindful of my good cousin
我总是惦记着我的这位表哥 [02:47.707]I knew exactly who he was but I still loved him
我知道他的真实面貌 但我依然爱他 [02:50.407] [02:51.269]Demetrius is Mary-Ann now
德米特律斯现在是玛丽安了 [02:53.017]I mean he's really Mary-Ann, even took things further
他现在真的是玛丽安了 不是闹着玩的 [02:55.902]Changed his gender before Bruce Jenner was certain
在Bruce Jenner下定决心之前 他就改变了自己的性别 [02:57.703]Living his truth even if it meant see a surgeon
活出他的真实 即便这意味着要去看外科医生 [02:59.969]We didn't talk for a while, he seemed more distant
我们有一段时间没有交流 他让人感觉更疏远了 [03:02.751]Wasn't comfortable around me, everything was offensive
在我身边他感觉不自在 仿佛一切都带有冒犯 [03:05.100]But I recall we both had a sick sense of humor
我记得我们曾经都很幽默 口无遮拦 [03:07.927]Made raw, but time changes all
但光阴荏苒 时间改变了一切 [03:10.863] [03:11.245]Demetrius is Mary-Ann now
德米特律斯现在是玛丽安了 [03:12.892]Remember church, Easter Sunday?
还记得那年复活节 我们一起去做礼拜吗？ [03:15.110]I sat in the pew, you had stronger faith
我坐在教堂的长凳上 你很相信基督 [03:17.016]More spiritual when these dudes were living life straight
比那些直的男人们 宗教信念更强 [03:19.701]Which I found ironic 'cause the pastor didn't see him the same
我感觉很讽刺 因为那牧师并不这么认为 [03:22.270]He said my cousin was going through some things
他说我表哥正在经历一些“困难” [03:24.914]He promised the world we living in was an act on abomination
他说，我们这个世界上的罪恶 [03:27.432]And Demetrius was to blame
需要怪罪在德米特律斯这样的人身上（传统基督教一直以来不是非常接受LGBTQ群体） [03:29.476]I knew you was conflicted by the feelings a preacher made
我知道 牧师说的那些话让你感觉内心矛盾 [03:32.198]Wondering if God still call you a decent man
怀疑上帝是否还把你看作一个善良、纯洁的人 [03:34.636]Still you found the courage to be subservient just to anoint
你还是选择勇敢地把这口气咽下 服从地在身上涂油 [03:37.492]Until he singled you out to prove his point, saying
直到牧师单独把你拎出来，为了证明他的观点，说道 [03:40.455] [03:40.948]Demetrius is Mary-Ann now
德米特律斯现在是玛丽安了 [03:42.663]Church, his auntie is a man now, it hurt
姑妈现在是男人了，这对他来说伤害极强 [03:46.133]He the most 'cause his belief was close to his words
因为他是很虔诚的基督徒 [03:48.721]Forcing me to stand now
听到这话，我忍不住了，站了起来 [03:50.739]I said "Mr. Preacher man, should we love thy neighbor?
我说道“牧师先生，我们难道不应该爱自己的邻居吗？（来自《旧约》的《利未记》中19：18） [03:52.901]The laws of the land or the heart, what's greater?
宗教的法规和真诚的内心，哪一个更重要？ [03:55.677]I recognize the study she was taught since birth
我知道她（注意性别指称的改变）从小就学习这个教义 [03:58.201]But that don't justify the feelings that my cousin preserved"
但那并不能证明她真实的想法和情感就是错的” [04:01.045]The building was thinking out loud, bad angel
当时整座教堂气氛紧张 坏天使仿佛站在我肩上 [04:03.511]That's when you looked at me and smiled, said "Thank you"
当时你看着我，微笑着说：“谢谢” [04:05.529]The day I chose humanity over religion
那一天，在严格的宗教和包容的人性之间，我选择了后者 [04:08.210]The family got closer, it was all forgiven
家庭关系也变得亲近了，我们互相理解、互相原谅 [04:10.244]I said them F-bombs, I ain't know any better
我曾经年少无知，说了那个f开头的词（f****t） [04:12.680]Mistakenly I didn't think you'd know any different
我错误地以为当时的你也和我一样无知 [04:15.176]See, I was taught words was nothing more than a sound
我曾经以为，如果说出口的话并不是故意的 [04:17.726]If everything was pronounced without any intentions
那语言不过是毫无意义的声音罢了 [04:20.382]If every second you challenge the shit I was kicking
是你让我质疑了自己曾经的看法，而那一刻 [04:22.490]Reminded me about a show I did out the city
你想起了我曾经办的一场演唱会 [04:25.227]That time I brung a fan on stage to rap
那天我让一位白人粉丝上台演唱（2018年Maad City事件） [04:27.754]But disapproved the word that she couldn't say with me
但不同意她和我一起说那个N开头的词 [04:30.620]You said "Kendrick, ain't no room for contradiction
你对我说：“Kendrick，你可不能自相矛盾呀 [04:33.040]To truly understand love, switch position
要想真正理解爱，你得换位思考 [04:35.682]"Nigga, nigga, nigga," we can say it together
f****t这个词 我们都能一起说 [04:38.208]But only if you let a white girl say 'Nigga'"
但前提是你得允许一位白人女孩说N***a”