Mother I Sober-Kendrick Lamar/Beth Gibbons

[00:00.00] 作词 : Kendrick Lamar/Beth Gibbons/Sam Dew/M. Spears/Stephen Lee Bruner/Daniel Tannenbaum/J. Pounds [00:01.00] 作曲 : Kendrick Lamar/Beth Gibbons/Sam Dew/M. Spears/Stephen Lee Bruner/Daniel Tannenbaum/J. Pounds [00:13.57]I'm sensitive, I feel everything, I feel everybody
我很敏感 我共情一切 我共情所有人 [00:17.53]One man standin' on 2 words, heal everybody
一人靠两个字支撑 治愈所有人 [00:20.48]Transformation, then reciprocation, karma must return
升华 往复 因果必定轮回 [00:23.72]Heal myself, secrets that I hide, buried in these words
治愈我自己 我隐藏的秘密埋藏在这些文字中 [00:27.27]Death threats, ego must die, but I let it purge
死亡威胁 自负必须被抹除 但我选择让它净化 [00:30.58]Pacify broken, pieces of me, it was all a blur
破碎的抚慰 我已裂成碎片 一切都很模糊 [00:34.09]Mother cried, put they hands on her, it was family ties
母亲哭了 他们殴打了她 那是家族里的纠纷 [00:37.35]I heard it all, I should've grabbed a gun, but I was only five
我听到了一切 我应该拿起枪 但那时我只有五岁 [00:41.12]I still feel weighin' on my heart, my first tough decision
我的心依旧沉重 我做出第一个艰难的决定 [00:44.19]In the shadows clingin' to my soul as my only critic
作为我唯一的批判者在阴影中桎梏我的灵魂 [00:47.79]Where's my faith? Told you I was Christian, but just not today
我的信仰去哪了？告诉过你我是基督徒 但今天我不是 [00:51.01]I transformed, prayin' to the trees, God is taken shape
我升华了 对着那些树祈祷（树在基督教中象征的上帝的乐园） 上帝已然成形 [00:54.54]My mothers mother followed me for years in her afterlife
我母亲的母亲在来世跟随我许多年 [00:57.99]Starin' at me on back of some buses
在公交车的后座上盯着我发呆 [01:00.68]I wake up at night, loved her dearly
我在夜里醒来 真挚地爱着她 [01:02.58]Traded in my tears for a Range Rover
用我的眼泪换了一辆揽胜 [01:05.31]Transformation, you ain't felt grief 'til you felt it sober
升华 在感知到它的苏醒前你不会感到悲伤 [01:08.67]I wish I was somebody
我希望我是一个大人物 [01:13.52]Anybody but myself
可以是任何人 但不要是我自己 [01:19.95]Ooh, I wish I was somebody
Ooh 真希望我是个大人物 [01:26.89]Anybody but myself
可以是任何人 但不要是我自己 [01:35.98]I remember lookin' in the mirror knowin' I was gifted
我记得看着镜子里的自己 我知道自己很有天赋 [01:39.30]Only child, me for seven years, everything for Christmas
七年里我是唯一的孩子 在圣诞节我拥有一切 [01:42.73]Family ties, they accused my cousin
家人间的纽带 他们指控我的表弟 [01:44.82]"Did he touch you Kendrick?"
“他碰你了吗，Kendrick？” [01:46.26]Never lied, but no one believed me
我从未撒谎但没有人相信我 [01:48.13]When I said "He didn't", frozen moments, still holdin' on it
当我说 "他没有 "时 气氛凝固一直至今 [01:51.85]Hard to trust myself, I started rhymin'
难以相信自己 我开始扭曲事实 [01:53.98]Copin' mechanisms to lift up myself
努力应对让自己振作起来 [01:56.41]Talked to my lawyer, told me not to be so hard on myself
与我的律师交谈 他告诉我不要对自己这么苛刻 [01:59.67]He has an aurora, I hope to achieve
他身上的闪光点是我想要得到的 [02:01.83]If I find some help, congratulations, made it to be famous
假如我获得了帮助 那么恭喜 你成名了 [02:05.24]Still I feel uneasy, water watchin', live my life in nature
可我还是感到不安 瞭望大海 在大自然中生活 [02:08.77]Only thing relieves me
这是唯一能让我感到解脱的事情 [02:10.33]Spirit guide whisper in my ear tell me that she sees me
灵魂引导在我耳边告诉我它看到了我 [02:13.57]"Did he touch you?" I said "No" again, still they didn't believe me
"他有没有碰你？" 我又说 "没有" 可他们还是不相信我 [02:17.05]Mothers brother said he got revenge for my mothers face
母亲的弟弟说他为我母亲的脸面报仇了 [02:20.26]Black and blue, the image of my queen that I can't erase
黑与蓝 我的女王的影像在我心中无法抹去 [02:23.55]'Til this day can't look her in the eyes pain is takin' over
直至今日 我都无法直视她的眼睛 痛苦正笼罩着我 [02:27.32]Blame myself, you never felt guilt 'til you felt it sober
我感到自责 在清醒前你从不会感受到内疚的感觉 [02:30.63]I wish I was somebody
我希望我是一个大人物 [02:35.82]Anybody but myself
可以是任何人 但不要是我自己 [02:42.22]Ooh, I wish I was somebody
Ooh 我真希望自己是个大人物 [02:49.18]Anybody but myself
可以是任何人 但不要是我自己 [02:57.58]I was never high, I was never drunk, never out my mind, I need control
我从未嗑嗨过 我从未喝醉过 我需要控制自己的头脑 [03:02.34]They handed me some smoke, but still I declined, I did it sober, sittin' with myself
他们给我递烟 但我仍然拒绝了 一个人坐在那里 [03:07.11]I went through all emotions, no dependents, except for one
经历了太多情感 我没有任何依赖 除了一个人 [03:10.88]Let me bring you closer, intoxicated, there's a lustful nature that I failed to mention
让我拉近与你的距离 我沉醉其中 探索我贪欲的本性 [03:15.30]Insecurities that I project, sleepin' with other women
我缺乏安全感 故而与其他女人睡觉 [03:18.58]Whitney's hurt, the pure soul I know I found her in the kitchen
Whitney感到受伤 我在厨房里发现了她 如此纯洁的灵魂 [03:22.02]Askin' God "Where did I lose myself? And can it be forgiven?"
我问上帝 "我在哪里迷失了自己？能否被原谅？" [03:25.28]Broke me down, she looked me in my eyes
打破了我的心理防线 她看着我的眼睛说 [03:27.75]"Is there an addiction?" I said "No", but this time I lied
"有瘾吗？" 我说 "没有" 但这次我撒谎了 [03:30.87]I knew that I can't fix it, Pure soul, even in her pain
我知道我无法修复纯洁的灵魂 即便是在她的痛苦当中 [03:34.45]Know she cared for me, gave me a number
知道她关心我 给了我她的号码 [03:36.90]Said she recommended some therapy
她说她推荐我接受治疗 [03:39.18]I asked my momma why she didn't believe me when I told her "No"
我问我妈妈 为什么我告诉她 “No”的时候她不相信我 [03:42.68]I never knew she was violated in Chicago, I'm sympathetic
我从不知道她在芝加哥的时候被侵犯了 我很同情她 [03:47.14]Told me she feared it happened to me, for my protection
她告诉我她害怕这种事情发生在我身上 她是为了保护我 [03:50.41]Though it never happened, she wouldn't agree
虽然我说这些从未发生过 但她不同意 [03:53.02]Now I'm affected, twenty years later trauma has resurfaced
我知道我受到了她的影响 因为二十年后创伤再次浮现 [03:56.31]Amplified as I write this song, I shiver 'cause I'm nervous
当我写这首歌的时候我在颤抖 因为我很紧张 [03:59.86]I was five, questioning myself, 'lone for many years
那时我五岁 我质疑自己 因此孤独了许多年 [04:02.89]Nothing's wrong, just results on how them questions made me feel
没有什么不对的 这只不过是那些问题带给我感觉的后果 [04:06.66]I made it home, seven years on tour, chasin' manhood
我终于回家了 七年来我一直绕道而行 试图寻找内心成熟的自己 [04:09.99]But Whitney's gone by time you hear this song, she did all she could
但当你听到这首歌时 Whitney已然离去 她已经做了力所能及的一切 [04:13.50]All those women gave me super powers, what I thought I lacked
这些女人赋予了我超能力 我以为我缺乏的东西 [04:16.88]I pray our children don't inherit me and feelings
我祈祷我们的孩子不要继承我以及我的情绪 [04:19.62]I attract, a conversation, not bein' addressed in black families
我发起了一场对话 提及那些在黑人家庭中没有得到解决的问题 [04:23.50]The devastation hauntin' generations and humanity
这些问题的破坏力困扰着我们几代人以及我们的人性 [04:27.32]They raped our mother, then they raped our sisters
他们侵犯了我们的母亲 然后他们侵犯了我们的姐妹 [04:29.48]Then they made us watch, then made us rape eachother
他们逼我们我们看着 然后让我们互相侵犯 [04:32.00]Psychotic torture between our lives we ain't recovered
这些生命中的精神折磨我们至今无法抹去 [04:35.05]Still livin' as victims in the public's eyes, who pledge allegiance
在公众眼里我们仍是受害者 宣誓效忠的受害者 [04:38.29]Every other brother has been compromised
所有其他的兄弟都已经妥协了 [04:40.59]I know the secrets, every other rapper sexually abused
我知道其他说唱歌手被侵犯的秘密 [04:44.38]I see them daily burin' they pain in chains and tattoos
我看到他们每天都在用纹身和束缚试图抚平痛苦 [04:47.67]So listen close before you start to pass judgement on how we move
所以 在你批判我们的行为前 请仔细听好 [04:51.18]Learn how we cope, whenever his uncle had to walk him from school
你该去了解我们是如何应对那些事情的 每当叔叔不得不带我们离开学校 [04:54.49]His ankle grows deep in misogyny
我们在厌女的环境中耳濡目染 [04:57.08]This is posttraumatic black families and a sodomy, today is still active
这些便是黑人家庭的创伤 而这些创伤今天仍然活跃 [05:01.57]So I set free myself from all the guilt that I thought I made
所以我把自己从所有自以为的内疚中释放出来 [05:04.74]So I set free my mother all the hurt that she titled shame
所以我把我母亲从她所示为“耻辱”的的伤害中解救出来 [05:08.19]So I set free my cousin, khaotic for my mothers pain
所以我把我的表弟从混沌中解救出来 [05:11.74]I hope Hakeem made you proud, 'cause you ain't die in vein
我希望Hykeem让你感到骄傲了 因为你没有白白死去 [05:15.15]So I set free the power of Whitney, may she heal us all
所以我释放了Whitney的力量 愿她治愈我们所有人 [05:18.73]So I set free our children, may good karma keep them with God
所以我让孩子们自由 愿善缘让他们与上帝同在 [05:22.35]So I set free the hearts filled with hatred, keep our bodies sacred
所以我释怀了那些充满仇恨的心 让我们的身体保持圣洁 [05:25.45]As I set free all you abusers, this is transformation
当我释放你们这些虐待者的时候 这 便是信仰的升华