Carissa-Sun Kil Moon

[00:00.00] 作曲 : Mark Kozelek [00:17.04]Oh Carissa, when I first saw you,
卡莉莎 当第一次见你 [00:20.78]you were a lovely child
你还是一个可爱的孩子 [00:23.72]And the last time I saw you,
我最后一次见你 [00:26.06]you were fifteen and pregnant and running wild
你十五岁怀孕了开始叛逆 [00:30.84]I remember wondering,
我记得我曾好奇 [00:33.34]could there be a light at the end of your tunnel?
能否在你隧道的尽头安上一盏灯 [00:38.21]But I left Ohio then
但是我离开了 [00:41.70]and pretty much forgotten all about you
然后忘记了你 [00:45.84]I guess you were
我猜 [00:47.03]there some years ago at a family funeral
你很多年前在一个家的葬礼上 [00:52.06]But you were one of so many relatives
你是众多亲戚之一 [00:56.06]I didn't know which one was you
我不知道哪一个是你 [01:00.99]Yesterday morning I woke up to so many,
昨天早晨我很早醒来 [01:04.88]330 area code calls
330区代码调用 [01:08.57]I called my mom back and she was in tears
我叫我妈妈回来 她流出泪水 [01:12.36]and asked had I spoke to my father
问我有和我父亲说话吗 [01:15.44]Carissa burned to death last night
卡莉莎昨晚被烧死了 [01:19.07]in a freak accident fire
在一场意外的玩笑火灾里 [01:22.76]In her yard in Bruster her daughter
在布鲁斯特她家院子里 [01:25.60]came home from a party and found her
她的女儿从聚会回家时发现了她 [01:30.13]Same way as my uncle who was her grandfather
她的祖父我叔叔也是这样 [01:37.61]An aerosol can blew up in the trash, goddamn,
化学用剂在垃圾桶爆炸 天哪 [01:41.69]what were the odds?
赔偿什么呢 [01:44.69]She was just getting ready to
她刚打算 [01:47.39]go to her midnight shift as an RN is Rosworth
去上夜班 [01:50.87]And she vanished up in flames like that
她像那样消失在火焰里 [01:55.52]but there had to be more to her life's worth
她的人生本该更有价值 [01:59.86]Everyone's grieving out of their minds,
每个人都感到心痛 [02:03.44]making arrangements and taking drugs
做一些安排 吃一些药 [02:06.68]But I'm flying out there tomorrow
我明天就会离开这 [02:09.22]because I need to give and get some hugs
因为我需要一些安慰 [02:14.01]Cause I got questions
因为我有了疑问 [02:17.78]that I'd like to get answered
我想要得到答案 [02:21.08]I may never get them,
它也许永远无解 [02:23.57]but Carissa gotta know how did it happen
卡莉莎要知道它怎么发生的 [02:29.45]Carissa was thirty-five,
卡莉莎三十五岁 [02:32.58]you don't just raise two kids
你不止养育了两个孩子 [02:35.02]and take out your trash and die
清理垃圾时死去 [02:40.36]She was my second cousin,
她是我的二堂姐 [02:43.55]I didn't know her well at all but it don't mean that
我根本不知道她是否过得好不好 [02:47.22]I wasn't meant to find some poetry
这不意味寻找什么穷人 [02:53.81]to make some sense of this,
去理解他们 [02:56.35]to find a deeper meaning
去寻找深层含义 [03:01.48]In a senseless tragedy,
在一场毫无意义的悲剧里 [03:05.61]oh Carissa I'll sing your name across every sea
卡莉莎我会在每一片海洋里吟唱你的名字 [03:42.28]Were you doing someone else's chores for them?
你是否为别人做着散工 [03:49.35]Were you just killing time,
你是否在消磨时间 [03:51.88]finding things to do all by your lonesome?
为你的无聊找事情做 [03:56.57]Was it even you
是否甚至是你 [03:58.36]who mistakenly put flammables in the trash
错误地把易燃物丢在了垃圾里 [04:03.94]Was it your kids just being kids,
是你的孩子做的吗 [04:06.77]and so, oh, the guilt they will carry around forever
这份内疚会伴随他们终生 [04:11.76]Well I'm going out there to get a look at the landscapes,
我将离开这里去看看风景 [04:18.63]To get a look at those I'm connected by blood and see
看一看那些与我血脉相连的 [04:23.66]how it all may have shaped me
如何塑造了我 [04:26.35]Well I'm going out there though I'm not really needed
我离开这里即使我并非真的需要 [04:33.28]I'm just so broken up about it,
我只是想结束一切 [04:36.56]how is it that this sad history repeated?
这份悲伤的历史会怎样重复 [04:41.05]I'll return to Ohio, to the place I was born
我会回到我的出生地 [04:48.08]Gonna see where I hung with my cousins
去看看那个我与堂兄弟们玩耍的地方 [04:51.41]and played with them in the snow
与他们在雪中打闹 [04:54.75]Fist in their palms,
碰拳 [04:56.30]gonna see how they've grown
去看看他们如何成长 [04:59.04]Visit some greats and say hey I've missed you
去看看一些伟人 说嘿我想你 [05:02.83]Gonna find out as much as I can
去尽我所能的寻找 [05:06.06]about my little second cousin Carissa
有关于卡莉莎的事 [05:11.20]Gonna go to Ohio, where I was born
我会回到我的出生地 [05:17.68]Got a 10:45 AM flight, I'm leaving tomorrow morning
搭上10：45的飞机 我会在明早离开 [05:24.69]Gonna see my aunts and my uncles,
去看看我的叔叔阿姨 [05:28.73]my parents and sisters
我的父母姐妹 [05:32.07]Mostly I'm going to pay my respects
最重要的是 [05:35.55]to my little second cousin Carissa
我会对卡莉莎致以无限敬意 [05:40.99]Going to Ohio where I feel I belong
去我所属于的地方 [05:46.56]Ask those who know the most about Carissa
问一问那些最了解卡莉莎的人 [05:50.40]for it was her life and death that I'm helplessly drawn.
有关于她的生死 我无助地画着 [05:55.68]Carissa was thirty-five, raised kids
卡莉莎三十五岁 抚养着孩子 [05:59.40]since she was fifteen years old and suddenly died
自从她十五岁开始 然后突然死去 [06:05.78]Next to an old river, fire pit,
下一站去一条古老的河 [06:09.33]oh there's gotta be more than that to it
似乎不止如此 [06:17.09]She was only my second cousin but
她只是我的二堂姐 [06:21.17]it don't mean that I'm not here for her or that
这不意味着我不是为她在此 [06:24.52]I wasn't meant to give her life poetry,
我不是给她生活以贫困 [06:31.73]make sure her name is known across every city
确保她的名字被每一座城市知道